“Fuck me… oh, shit… that’s it… pound me raw…” I spouted the words that came to my mind as I felt my lust increasing, propelling through my body and my mind to reach the eventual goal of total bliss in the form of a sweet orgasm. Yes, this was what I’d been craving for three long years. This was what I might never actually have again in my life. But right now I was going to enjoy it as much as I possibly could.
My words seemed to spur him on faster. He was becoming more aggressive with his sex. His cock was ripping into me as I tightened and got even wetter, both things increasing my desire and sensation. It was not going to be long until I came hard all over his sweet, succulent cock. I wanted him to feel his balls exploding into me, to fill me with a river of his special seed. I wanted him to put another beautiful baby in me dammit.
And I wanted him to raise our children with me. We could be so happy together, if only I could summon half the guts that Gary had.
He pulled back just then and quickly spun me around so that I was now bent over in a doggy style position over the bar. And then Gary’s cock was pushing between my cheeks into my tight, wet center, my pussy grabbing at him trying not to let him go as he pulled right out of me. Oh, I was getting so close now. This was so perfect. I wasn’t sure I could hold on much longer.
“Fill me up, baby!” I yelled.
I could feel he was getting close as well, but hearing my words turned him on and spurned him farther, faster towards his own orgasm. He grabbed my hair and pulled hard as he held his face close to mine and fucked the shit out of me with his tight, hard cock.
“AAAGGGHH!” Gary yelled as he came. He erupted like a volcano inside of me, spewing his hot sexual lava into me. He held his cock deeply inside of me at that moment, trying to wait until he was finished before he pulled out of me.
This was all it took to get me to experience my own orgasm. I came hard right then. The pleasure started between my legs and then went up my spine and branched out to the other areas of my body with sweet, epic tingles of lust.
Gary continued to pump me, ever so slightly, moving slowly, his cock dragging out of my tightness and then plunging back in slowly. I loved it when he pushed back inside of me. Oh… shit…
I expected to feel his arms around me then. I wanted him to hold me, to tell me that he loved me and that he missed me so much. I wanted to break the silence and tell him everything about me as well, but that didn’t happen. Not because I didn’t really want to say these things, but because I was no longer there.
I was home in my bed. It was in the middle of the night. All I saw was darkness. But my orgasm… that had been real. I’d came from the sweet dream. It felt so real. I could feel Gary there with me. I was sure that it couldn’t have been a dream. It was just too damn real, but after searching the room, I realized that I’d just had the most erotic, most vivid dream that I’d ever had before.
What did that mean? To me, I felt that I had some sort of a breakthrough since I was even having that type of a dream. Did this mean that I was almost to the point of telling Gary everything? I wanted to. I wanted so badly to just reach out to him and tell him everything. He needed to know.
I was doing so much harm by keeping this secret. And the longer I kept it, the harder it was going to be to reveal it.
Chapter Twenty-Three
Gary
I arrived in Columbus from the airport at ten in the morning. It was a decent flight, little bad air, a few good snacks, and I actually didn’t have anyone sitting beside me. It was great. I almost took a nap, but the flight was short enough and I was there in no time. I felt a bit strange about flying. It would have been a long drive, but a decent one if I’d decided to go that route. But with someone else footing the bill for the ticket, I was happy to fly.
I grabbed my carryon bag, stepped off the plain, and then hailed a cab to take me to the station. I would swing by my hotel and all of that stuff later. Today, I just wanted to tour the facility and get it over with. I’d done some thinking on the plane. There wasn’t that much else to do. And I’d decided that I was actually going to accept this job. Unless there was some really good reason not to, I was going to take it. I had to get out of Chicago. Just being away from the city on the plain had made me feel about ten years younger. It was the first time in a long time that I wasn’t feeling wore down by life. I was handling everything that was going on in my life with the greatest of ease, when it usually filled me with dread and anxiety. I’d even been dreading this trip at first, but as soon as the plane left the ground I felt free and like I was being given a new lease on life.
Now I’d landed and I was looking forward to meeting everyone at the station and seeing the place in action for myself. It was most likely a lot like my old crew and the working environment would be similar, except I’d be the big guy at the top making all the decisions. I had not yet decided what kind of authoritative style I was going to adopt, but I knew I would figure it out as I went along. Most of that depended on how the others would respond to me being in charge. If they all tried to push my buttons, then they were going to get the bad side of me. I would control and micromanage the shit out of everyone. That was the management style I hated, but if they demanded that then they would get it.
The cab pulled up to the fire station. I grabbed my bag and went inside. When I arrived, I was met by an attractive woman in uniform. She smiled at me as I came through the door, a bit too much I could see. That was interesting, but I ignored it. “Can I help you?” she asked. Her voice was sweet and bubbly.
“Yeah, I need to speak to the Chief,” I said. “My name is Gary Tenny.”
“Oh, ok,” she replied. “I’m Michelle. Right this way,” she said.
I followed her down a long hallway and around a corner to a big office to the right. The placard on the outside of the door read Chief Josephs. She knocked and a moment later the door opened. “Chief, there is a Gary Tenny here to see you.”
“Ah, great,” Josephs said.
Michelle motioned me to come on in and I followed. The office was small, but it was nice overall. It was a place I felt that I could get used to. I’d never had my own office before. I felt somehow special and distinguished to be a man who would soon have one. I could shut the world out and just be left alone with my thoughts as I got as much work done as I could muster. I knew the job was very high stress and the extra pay was not that much greater, especially for the job requirements. I would be responsible for an entire unit of people. That was a terrifying prospect, but I somehow recognized it as a good way to live life and spend my days. I wanted to give back and to help those who were new to the fold, coming up the ranks. This was a great way to do that. I felt like I belonged there right from the start.
Michele left then. She gave me the eye as she walked out, but I didn’t really pay her any attention. There was only one woman in the world for me and I still held onto the hope that one day I would in fact find her. I had become virtually immune to the charms of other women. I would never lose hope that I would one day find Shelly and hold her in my arms. I knew she loved me and that there had to be a special reason to do what she did. I just wished could get to the bottom of it.
“Gary! It’s an honor to meet you,” Josephs said. “Chief Walker speaks very highly of you.”
“Thank you very much. I really appreciate this opportunity.”
“Absolutely,” he said. “We found your resume online and then did a bit of checking before we finally called your station and spoke to your chief. Then he confirmed everything for us. The man sang you great praises. You should thank him.”
“I’ll be certain to do that,” I said.
“Well, let’s show you around the facility and introduce you to some of the crew,” he said.
I nodded and followed him out the door. The facility was more modern, newer, and much nicer than our own station. The place smelled better, too. It was like they had an outside cleaning crew working to keep everything in pristine condition. I loved that.
Everything just seemed to be much more official and professional looking. At our last station, mostly everything was pretty laid back and chill, which I liked, but now that I saw how nicely structured everything was here, I felt like I should have been here years ago.
“This is our break room,” Josephs said. I marveled at how much larger it was than our break room in Chicago. This place looked like a full-fledged cafeteria compared to that. The chairs were more comfortable looking, the place was nicely painted, and the television hanging on the wall was much larger. This was shaping up to be a most interesting trip.
Next we visited the weight room. The machines were much more numerous as well. The crew would not have to wait as long for machines and even free weights as we did with my crew. And all of the equipment looked so much newer. I was seriously impressed.
At last we came to the equipment room. Everything was clean and pristine looking, almost as if they focused so much on appearance that after every single fire or even after drills, they wanted to make sure that everything stayed orderly and showcased the utmost in professionalism. My old crew thought they were doing that same type of thing, but here I was seeing how this was really done and put into practice. I loved it. I instantly felt at home here. I was going to take this job. I was going to relocate and start over. This was what my life had been missing. I was stagnating in still water. I had to get going.
“Wow, that’s fantastic,” I said.
“I’m so glad you think so,” Josephs said. “You know, I’ve been Chief here for almost twenty-five years. It saddens me to let this go, but it is time for me to move on. I know I’ll be leaving it in good hands if you agree to come on board.”
I looked around the station and I felt the surge of pride coursing through me. This was where I wanted to be. I belonged here. I didn’t feel that I belonged in Chicago anymore. There were too many bad memories there. The past three years of bad memories. My life had been overshadowed by the pain I’d dealt with since Shelly left.
And now it was time to start over and move on from that pain.
“I would love to accept the offer,” I said.
Josephs smiled widely. “That’s fantastic,” he said. “Wow, that is great. I had a feeling you would. I just had that feeling. Let’s go to my office and have a drink to celebrate while you fill out some papers.”
“Sounds good.” I followed him back to the office where he poured us both a tumbler of scotch and then went to work with gathering the paperwork. I’d always despised filling out papers, but it was a necessary evil sometimes. I had to do it to officially accept the job.
I finished up the paperwork and handed it to Josephs. “Well, that is done. When can you start? I was thinking a week from today.”
“That should be fine,” I replied. “I’m really looking forward to this. To new beginnings,” I said holding up my glass. He touched his to mine to complete the toast.
“To new beginnings for both us,” Josephs said. He took a large gulp of the scotch. “Now, what am I going to do with myself? I’ll probably be bored out of my mind.”
“Well, you could move somewhere warm and take up golf,” I said.
“You’re a funny guy. They will love that around here,” he said.
We finished up and I left his office. Suddenly, Josephs said, “Hey, you got a minute? I want you to meet someone.”
I turned to him. “Sure.”
He led me over to an office just down the hall from his. The door was open now. It had been closed before with the blinds drawn. I could now see that there was a light on and I heard someone rustling around in the office.
Josephs poked his head into the tiny office. “Hey, I want you to meet your new Chief.”
A moment later a face appeared at the door. My heart stopped. This was not happening. I was dreaming, or hallucinating. I closed my eyes tightly and then opened them again. She was still there. I felt faint. My legs were wobbly and I thought my heart was going to seize up at any second. How was this happening? What was going on here? A strange twist of cosmic fate or coincidence…? What?
I was looking at Shelly. She was right there in front of me. Shelly was there.
How did this happen?
Chapter Twenty-Four
Shelly
I felt sick all over. I instantly broke out in a cold sweat. I felt feverish and like I might vomit and pass out all at once. Gary was there. He was right in front of me. He’d found me. In fact, he’d tracked me down. I should have known I could never hide from him forever. He loved me that much. He had come looking for me.
But why was he so surprised to see me? If he knew I was there, if he had in fact tracked me to here, why did he look like he’d seen a ghost?
Unless…
He didn’t know I was there. Wait, did Josephs just say Gary was the new chief? What…that was what happened? He was going to be there from now on. He was my new boss… no… this couldn’t be… I wasn’t ready yet. Why? Why was this happening?
I was going to faint. I knew it. Any moment now the ground was going to raise up to smack me in the face. Shit. Fuck. I was in so much trouble. This was really happening. There would be no running from this. Still… it was too soon. I couldn’t deal with this.
“Shelly…?” Gary asked. His voice came out in a whisper. He looked like he was going to be sick, too.
“Oh, you two know each other?” Josephs asked.
Neither of us said a word for a moment. Finally, Gary said, “From long ago.”
“Ah, it’s a small world,” Josephs said. “Well, I’ll let you two get reacquainted, and I’ll see you on Monday.”
“Sure,” Gary said. “Absolutely.”
Josephs went back to his office.
“What are you doing here?” Gary asked. “Why…what…?”
I could tell he was speechless, too. Somehow, I found the words to speak. “I’m sorry… I… I have to go.”
I couldn’t deal with this right now. It was too much, too extreme. I felt like the world was crashing down around me all at once right now. I was really going to lose my mind here.
I started to head for the door. As soon as I was outside, a hand grabbed me and pulled me back. It was Gary. He pulled me over to the side out of sight of the windows to keep this as discreet as possible. I appreciated his forethought.
“Why did you leave?” Gary demanded. “You owe me an explanation.”
“I’m sorry… I had to… I’ve got to go,” I said.
“You need to tell me what happened. I deserve to know. You just left without saying a word to anyone,” Gary said. He was getting louder, but I could tell that he was trying to keep himself under control and act professional at our place of work. I really loved him for that. I needed my job. But he was my boss now. He could fire me if he wanted to. Wow, how did things get so messed up?
“I’m so sorry,” I said. “I just can’t…”
I was trying to speak, but my mouth would hardly move. It was so dry that there was barely any sound coming out at all. My throat was tight. I was clenching down on my vocal chords as if my body was purposely trying to make sure that I did not say the wrong thing, or anything at all.
“Really? That’s all I get? You aren’t going to say a word?” Gary asked. He was so disgusted, but I could still see the love and care in his eyes.
I didn’t say anything else. I couldn’t. I turned and ran towards my car. I got in and started up the engine. I backed up and started to head out of the parking lot. As I backed up, I could see Gary in the rearview still standing in the same spot. I thought he might try to chase the car and get me to stop, but that would have caused a huge scene. He was being more careful than that.
When I got home, I sat down on my couch and cried my eyes out. I couldn’t believe this was happening. I’d tried to outrun the past and it had caught up with me eventually. I wondered if this was why I was having so many dreams lately. This wasn’t the way I wanted this to happen. I was going to call Gary and ease into things. But
now I didn’t have that option. That luxury was now off the table completely.
I was fucked. I had to face him. But I had to gather my thoughts first. I didn’t have the faintest idea how to begin this conversation. I wasn’t sure how to tell him about why I’d left, or the fact that we now had a two year old together he’d never seen and knew nothing about. Would it be best to start with that, or was that too shocking? I just didn’t know.
I stood up and paced back and forth trying to get my bearings. What was going to happen next?
Chapter Twenty-Five
Gary
“Tell me everything,” I said.
I was sitting across from Shelly in her living room. She had a nice house, cozy and very well kept. I liked it.
After I ran into her at the fire station and she refused to talk to me, I decided to look up her address. I drove to her house and knocked on her door. At first, there was no answer, but after a few minutes, the door swung open. Shelly was there. She looked as if she’d been waiting for me.
“I left because of something that happened,” Shelly said. “It happened very quickly, or at least I found out about it suddenly. I made the decision that it was best for me to leave. It was nothing you did. It was nothing I did. It was nobody’s fault really, but I knew if I stayed it would have messed up everything for you.”
I listened as she spoke. She was beating around the bush. There was something big she had to tell me. I braced myself and waited. I wanted to push her to get on with it, but I knew that would only make her resist it more and it would take longer to get anything out of her. This conversation was three years in the making. I was not going to blow it here. I had to be patient and let her explain.
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