Until You

by Judith McNaught

  The two words filled him with so much pride that he thought he would burst with it. I know. No more recriminations, no pretense, no denials. In place of that, she lifted her eyes to his, and in their fathomless depths he saw only sweet acceptance and quiet joy.

  “Will you come inside with me now?”

  “Yes.”

  61

  His bride of two hours stirred reluctantly as the coach came to a smart stop, and with equal reluctance Stephen lifted his mouth from hers. “Where are we?” she asked, her voice a languorous, thready whisper.

  “Home,” Stephen said, a little surprised at the husky timbre of his own voice.

  “Yours?”

  “Ours,” he corrected, and Sherry felt a shiver of delight at the sound of that.

  A servant was opening the coach’s door and reaching inside to let down the steps. Sherry made a halfhearted effort to straighten her hair by raking her fingers through it and shoving it back off her forehead. As she did, she noticed the way his gaze strayed to her hair, following it almost caressingly down to her shoulders while the tiny lines at the corners of his eyes creased into a thoughtful smile. “What are you thinking about?” she asked.

  His smile deepened. “Something I’ve been thinking about ever since you marched out of the dressing room in London, pulled a towel off your head, and announced to me in the direst tones that your hair was ‘brazen.’ ”

  “What did that make you think of?” she persisted as he alighted and offered her his hand.

  “I’ll tell you later. Better yet, I’ll show you,” Stephen promised.

  “It sounds mysterious,” Sherry teased.

  For four years, women had flung themselves at Stephen in the hope of someday becoming mistress of the palatial house he had designed and built and called Montclair. Now he waited for a reaction from the woman he had finally chosen to be its mistress.

  Sherry tucked her hand in the crook of his arm, smiled cordially at the footmen who’d come out to help them, took one step forward, and looked up at the majestic, sprawling stone mansion in front of her. She stopped dead, staring in disbelief at the brightly lit windows that were spread across its entire facade, then she looked over her shoulder at the long winding drive that was lined with luxurious coaches on both sides as far as she could see. She looked at it, and then at him, and said in a tone of blank shock, “Are you giving a party?”

  Stephen threw back his head and shouted with laughter, then he wrapped his arms around her and buried his laughing face in her hair. “I am insane about you, Lady Westmoreland.”

  She wasn’t impressed by a palace, but she was pleased and impressed with the sound of her newly acquired name. “Sheridan Westmoreland,” she said aloud. “I like that very much.” Behind them, Nicholas DuVille’s coach pulled to a stop and Sherry remembered her original concern. “Are you giving a party?”

  Stephen nodded, looking over at DuVille and waiting as he walked toward them. “This is my mother’s sixtieth birthday. I’m giving a ball in honor of the occasion, which is why my brother and sister-in-law weren’t at the chapel. They’ve been playing host in my absence.” She looked a little dismayed, and he explained, “The invitations had gone out weeks ago, but I didn’t want to wait until after the ball for our wedding. More correctly,” he amended wryly, “I couldn’t endure the suspense of waiting another day to find out if there was going to be a wedding.”

  “It’s not that,” she said a little desperately as they walked up a flight of terraced steps, “it’s that I’m not dressed—”

  Nicki heard that and gave her a wounded look. “I chose that gown myself in London.”

  “Yes, but it isn’t a ball gown,” Sheridan explained as the butler opened the door and an explosion of laughter and music came at her from all sides. Ahead of her a Palladian staircase swept upward in a graceful U on both sides of an immense foyer. Beside her, a butler with a familiar face and a beaming smile stood at attention, waiting for her notice, and Sherry forgot about the problem of a gown. “Colfax!” she exclaimed joyously.

  He bowed formally. “Welcome home, Lady Westmoreland.”

  “Is everyone here?” Stephen asked, pulling his thoughts from the large bed that awaited them upstairs to the more immediate issue of a change of attire.

  “They are.”

  With a nod, Stephen looked at his best man. “Why don’t you go ahead to the ballroom, and Sherry and I will change clothes.”

  “Not a chance. I want to see their faces.”

  “Very well, we’ll change and join you in—” Stephen actually considered the possibility of a tryst with his bride before he attended a ball that would last well into the small hours of early morning.

  “In twenty minutes,” DuVille emphasized with a knowing look.

  Sherry listened to that with only half her attention while she wondered what she was expected to change into. She asked Stephen that as he led her upstairs, but his reply was interrupted by Nicki DuVille who called after them from the foot of the stairs, “Twenty minutes, or I come in after you.”

  That innocent reminder caused her new husband to say something under his breath. “What did you just call Nicki?”

  “I called him the ‘Soul of Punctuality,’ ” Stephen lied with a helpless grin at the dubious look on her face.

  “It didn’t sound quite like that.”

  “It was close enough,” he said, stopping outside a suite of rooms at the end of the hall. “There wasn’t time to have an appropriate gown made for you, so Whitney brought one she thought was well-suited to the occasion—providing you came back with me.” As he spoke, he reached out and swung open the door. Sheridan looked around him and saw three maids standing in readiness, but her attention was drawn to a breathtaking ivory satin gown that was lovingly spread out across the huge bed, its long train swirling over the side of the coverlet and down all the way to the floor. Mesmerized, she took a step forward, then stopped and looked from the lavish gown to her husband’s tender smile. “What is that?”

  In answer, he curved his hand around her nape, pressed her cheek tightly to his chest, and whispered, “Whitney’s wedding gown. She wanted you to wear it if you came back with me.”

  Sheridan decided it was absurd to cry merely because she was happy.

  “How long will it take you to get ready?”

  “An hour,” Sheridan said regretfully, “if we have to try anything elaborate with my hair.”

  For the second time, he bent his head and whispered something the maids couldn’t hear: “Brush it if you must, and then leave it alone.”

  “Oh, but—”

  “I have a distinct partiality for that long, shining, brazen red hair of yours.”

  “In that case,” she said a little shakily as he let her go, “I think I’ll wear it down tonight.”

  “Good, because we only have fifteen minutes left.”

  * * *

  The dowager duchess looked at Hugh Whitticomb when the under-butler, who was stationed on the balcony, called out the name of the Duke and Duchess of Hawthorne as they passed by him and made their way into the crowded ballroom. “Hugh, do you have the time?” she asked.

  Clayton, who had just looked at his own watch, answered for the physician. “It’s after ten o’clock.”

  The answer caused the small group of people to look despondently at one another. Whitney expressed all their thoughts in a voice filled with sad resignation. “Sherry refused him or they would have been here three hours ago.”

  “I felt so very certain—” Miss Charity began, then broke off, her narrow shoulders drooping with despair.

  “Perhaps DuVille couldn’t get her to agree to go to the chapel,” Jason Fielding suggested, but his wife shook her head and said flatly, “If Nicki DuVille wanted her to accompany him, he’d have found a way to persuade her to do it.”

  Unaware that she’d made it sound as if no woman could refuse Nicki anything, she glanced up and saw her husband frowning at Clayton Westmorelan
d. “Is there something about DuVille that I haven’t noticed?” he demanded of the duke. “Something that makes him irresistible?”

  “I have no trouble resisting him,” Clayton said dryly, then he stopped while one of his great-aunts came over to congratulate his mother on her birthday.

  “This is such a lovely ball, Alicia. You must be very happy tonight.”

  “I could be happier,” the dowager duchess said with a sigh as she turned to begin mingling with the guests in the ballroom.

  On the balcony above, the under-butler called out more new arrivals. “Sir Roderick Carstairs. Mr. Nicholas Du Ville . . .”

  The dowager whirled around and looked up, along with the rest of the small group that had been waiting for word of the day’s outcome. Nicki looked down at them, his handsome face solemn as he walked slowly along the balcony toward the stairs leading down to the ballroom. “It didn’t happen!” Whitney whispered achingly, studying his expression. “We failed.”

  Her husband slid his hand around her waist and pulled her close. “You tried, darling. You did everything that could be done.”

  “We all did,” Charity Thornton agreed, her chin trembling as she looked sadly at Hugh Whitticomb and then up at Nicholas DuVille.

  “The Earl and Countess of Langford!”

  That announcement caused an immediate reaction among the inhabitants of the ballroom, who began looking at one another in surprise and then turned to the balcony, but it was nothing compared to the reaction among the small group of seven people who’d been keeping a vigil of hope. A jolt went through the entire group; hands reached out blindly and were clasped tightly by other hands; faces lifted to the balcony, while joyous smiles dawned brightly and eyes misted with tears.

  Attired in formal black evening clothes with a white waistcoat and frilled white shirt, Stephen Westmoreland, Earl of Langford, was walking across the balcony. On his arm was a medieval princess clad in a pearl-encrusted ivory satin gown with a low, square bodice that tapered to a deep V at the waist. A gold chain with clusters of diamonds and pearls in each link rode low on her hips, swaying with each step, and her hair tumbled in flaming waves and heavy curls over her shoulders and back.

  “Oh, my—” Charity breathed in awe, but her exclamation was drowned by the thunder of applause that had begun all over the ballroom and was gaining in volume, until it seemed to shake the very rafters.

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  It was his wedding night.

  With his shirt open at the collar and his cuffs rolled back on his forearms, Stephen sat in a wing-backed chair in his bedchamber, his feet propped upon a low table, while he lingered over a glass of brandy, giving his bride ample time to disrobe and dismiss her maids.

  His wedding night . . .

  His bride . . .

  He looked round in surprise as his valet let himself into the suite. “May I be of assistance this evening?” Damson suggested when his master seemed baffled by what was actually a routine appearance each night.

  Assistance? Stephen stifled a smile as his wayward thoughts refused to switch from the pleasurable task that lay ahead of him to Damson’s offer to assist him tonight. His mind conjured a comic image of his conscientious valet hovering at Sheridan’s bedside, his clothing brush in hand, waiting for Stephen to hand him his trousers so he could hang them properly, then bustling back to the bedside for each additional piece of clothing as Stephen removed it.

  “My lord?” Damson prompted and Stephen gave his head a slight shake as he realized he was staring past the servant with what surely must look like an idiot’s smile.

  “No,” he said with polite firmness. “Thank you.”

  Damson eyed Stephen’s open shirt and rolled-back cuffs with disapproval. “Your dressing robe perhaps, my lord, the black brocade?”

  Stephen tried, very seriously, to imagine what possible use he was going to have for a dressing robe, and felt the smile tug at his cheek again. “No, I think not.”

  “The wine silk, then?” Damson persevered doggedly. “Or the dark green, perhaps?” It hit Stephen that his middle-aged valet, who had never been married, was gravely concerned that Stephen was not likely to make a good impression on his new bride were he to walk into her bedchamber casually attired in trousers and shirtsleeves.

  “Neither one.”

  “Perhaps the—”

  “Go to bed, Damson,” Stephen said, cutting off any discussion of silk neckcloths and appropriate shirt studs, which he felt certain would be the valet’s next point of concern. “And, thank you,” he added with a brief smile to take any sting out of the dismissal.

  Damson obeyed with a bow, but not before he cast a tortured look at Stephen’s open shirtfront and the glimpse of bare throat and chest it allowed.

  Half-convinced the man would make one more attempt to save him from the unspeakable indignity of appearing for his wedding night inappropriately attired, Stephen put the brandy glass on the table. Then he got up, walked over to the door, and threw the bolt.

  Damson did not know, of course, that Stephen had already precipitated his wedding night with Sherry, and as Stephen opened the connecting door between the suites, he felt a sharp stab of guilty regret for the way he had begun and ended that night, but not for what they had done in the middle of it. Resolved to atone for everything their last encounter lacked, he walked into the connecting bedchamber. He stopped in surprise when she wasn’t waiting for him in bed, since he’d given her more than enough time to disrobe. Then he walked slowly toward the adjoining bathing room. He was partway there when the hall door of her bedchamber opened, and a maid rushed in carrying a pile of fluffy towels.

  His wife was in her bath, Stephen realized.

  His wife . . . Revelling in the thought and all it implied, he reached for the towels and took them from the scandalized maid. Then he dismissed her for the night.

  “But—but my lady will require me to help her dress for bed!”

  Stephen was beginning to wonder if every husband and wife, with the single exception of Sherry and himself, went to bed in a full suit of clothes and a ball gown as some sort of modest ploy to prevent servants from realizing they might actually see each other’s bodies. He was smiling about that as he walked into the bathing room and saw his wife in the sunken marble bath. Her back was partially turned to him, her hair was piled in a loose knot atop her head with charming tendrils down her nape, and there were bubbles up to the tops of her breasts.

  The sight was more than charming, it was downright enticing. His wife! The scent of lavender rising from her bath suddenly made him remember her bold ultimatum about Helene—an ultimatum with which he’d already complied. That memory called to mind her angry tirade about all the other women she’d heard mentioned by the gossips in connection with him. With an inner smile, Stephen decided that although she didn’t approve of his sexual dalliances before their marriage, she was certainly going to benefit from them tonight. In fact, he intended to make certain that she did so by using every bit of skill and knowledge he possessed to give her the wedding night she deserved, one she would never, ever forget.

  Feeling relatively confident of his ability to do that, he sat down on the edge of her tub, intending to play lady’s maid. Reaching into the warm, scented water, he wet his hands, then put them on her shoulders, his thumbs working lightly over her slick, wet skin.

  “I’d like to get out now,” she said without turning around.

  Smiling a little at the joke he was playing on her, Stephen stood up and opened the towel, holding it out for her. Sherry stepped out of the water, and he wrapped the towel around her from behind, folding his arms around her as he did so. She stiffened in shock when she saw his bare forearms encircling her, instead of a maid’s hands holding the towel. And then, very lightly she leaned back against him, bringing her back and hips and legs into contact with his full length, and she wrapped her arms over his, turned her cheek, and rubbed it against his shirt. It was a silent gesture of wanting, of tenderness, of love, a
nd yet when he turned her around, she trembled slightly, looking at him with nervous uncertainty. “May I put on my dressing robe?”

  It was a request for permission, which struck him as odd in an indefinable way, but since he’d already resolved to linger over her, he answered unhesitatingly and with a smile. “You may do anything you like, Lady Westmoreland.” When she hesitated, holding the towel around her, Stephen politely turned his back and went into the bedchamber, a little surprised by her sudden modesty. A little off-balance.

  When she strolled into the room a minute later, the sight of her did much more violent things to his balance. Dripping wet, wrapped in a towel, she was delectable. Clad in a low-cut dressing gown made entirely of white lace as fragile as a spider’s web, with shadowy glimpses of skin offered up to his view from the tops of her breasts all the way to her ankles, she was the haunting temptress of a male’s dreams . . . ethereal, inviting, not quite naked, but not quite covered. A siren. An angel.

  Sherry saw the banked fires kindle in his eyes as they drifted over her, and with only the one night at Claymore to rely on for clues as to what was going to happen, she waited for him to instruct her to take her hair down. She stood there, feeling awkward and helplessly aware of her lack of knowledge—a situation that might not have occurred had the maid not poured handfuls of lavender scent into her bathwater. The reminder of Helene Devernay wouldn’t have been quite so bad if Sherry hadn’t also gotten a good look at Stephen’s mistress two weeks ago, riding through Bond Street in a silver-lacquered carriage with lavender velvet squabs. Julianna Skeffington had pointed her out and provided her identity, but Sheridan had already guessed who she was. Stephen’s mistress—his former mistress if Sheridan had her way about it—was the sort of female to make any other woman feel ordinary and gauche. And Sheridan did.