You After Hell

by Manuela Ricci

  I can not give up Ian, so even if you are irritated I said I could not. Shit, I still have to say to the work Ian, he will kill me if he found out on his own. My thoughts are with me right away to the villa of Noha, Ian had left here before going to her ... She was definitely going to take a drink, I recognized that look of despair that painted look.

  "Noha?" I turned to Ian who is intent on mounting the last part of the system.

  "I do not know, he said he was returning now»

  "Listen, sorry I could not tell you before, but hold on tight ... we have a job ... a job with our music," Ian almost in slow motion raises his eyes from what he is doing, his eyes seem lost and I can not understand how he is taking the news. Maybe I should tell her before? Maybe I should take it with me, I was a jerk ...

  "Repeat!" Orders almost mechanically.

  "We have a place to Sixthyfive Records»

  "Shit Zac ..."

  "Sorry, I ..." Ian I jump on him and I think he wants to beat me, but bursts out laughing and continued to hit me with enthusiasm back.

  "I wanted to tell you before, but I had a little 'thoughts. But now let's start this party '

  "128bpm?" Presses with a satisfied smile. I am going now to lock myself in my world, it takes no time. The headphones on my ears and I leave the track that make their way into the space around us.

  I feel the other ear and isolate myself, it's one of my favorites. "Remember" I let it go slowly, slowly, barely touching the sliders, the music takes shape and I look up, to enjoy by the vision that music comes in those bodies that vibrates to the rhythm and are pulled up to get lost. As I watch the people crowded into small groups dancing by the pool, I see.

  It is close to the fence railing, wearing simple jeans and a white blouse, her blond hair are moved by the ocean breeze. I watch his hands drumming on the railing to the rhythm of the base, as if he heard more than he has admitted. I smile and I offer headphones to Ian.

  "Be right back," I reach but I come before us, a tall and physically well-placed encircling the waist. She turns around, shoving his hands into the back pockets of jeans. The boy immediately withdraws and leaves. At first I'm confused, until I see who opens the tight fist and his eyes look at what it contains and puts it in his pocket, looking furtively around him.

  I can not go to her, does not even know me, I have no right, so I do space with his elbows among the people until you find Noha. She is laughing with a group of boys, they must certainly be his team-mates, saw the same logo that everyone has printed on their t-shirt.

  "Noha, you have a minute?" I ask, he nods and walks away from his friends an instant.

  "It's all’OK?"

  "I really do not know, I saw your friend who took something from a boy," his eyes in amazement shell immediately followed by the fear that the whip.

  "Shit, I told you to stay away from her that Daniel is vulnerable," you pass both hands through his hair and he immediately adds:

  "Where now?" I pointed to the railing and I follow him, but just the few people we have before moving, we note that she is not even a shadow.

  "Where could you have gone? What she gave exactly? "I wonder why if they thought it was so vulnerable to have left her alone? Why has it allowed someone to bring the drug to her party? Why do I do all of these questions? But the answer to the latter seems to be almost suspended in mid-air.

  "MDMA" whispers almost defeated.

  "Shit, ecstasy, we have to find it right away," we say and I feel the concern make his way in the mind.

  Chapter

  18

  Medyson

  "We are really certain to have bottomed out,

  only when there is no light

  at the end of the tunnel ... "

  Where am I? How did we get here? I look around with only the dim light of the moon that illuminates the side of the road where I am. I feel so light, they are not empty, indeed, that gap seems to have vanished. But I do not feel anything, nessun'emozione, I do not know how to describe this feeling. I have only a vague memory of Noha home, Daniel, then darkness. I look at the time from the phone and find it a lot, too many missed calls. so many hours have passed? As I passed?

  The red ribbon, which fills the space between a guardrail and the other is under the tight grip of the hand. My eyes are lowered a little more ', until you see those black stripes still fresh asphalt. I look up and fixed the escarpment over the fence. Override and rest there with his eyes closed, the breeze coming from the sea crashes into the face.

  "A curve ... this damn way ... this is what has led you away!" I shout, and I am not even aware of doing so. I feel the crumbling of the rocks and soil underfoot. The same effect that I have in my life.

  "You have also abandoned you! Yes, I did not think I would have said, but I'm angry, no, I'm pissed off black. I know you do not like ... liked, bad words in my mouth but so you're not here to yell at me! You're no longer even to protect me ... God how much I HATE YOU! I hate you because you allowed to go silent on a night like many others. I have saluted as always, not knowing that your smile following me up the front steps, would be the last I would see. I hate you because if you were still here my life would not fall apart, and the last piece of me I'm 'to throw away now ... "reeling, lost in my own breathing, your heart rate increases with every word. Laughter takes over and see him there in front of me and teases me on the day of graduation.

  "Med You know, I do not think I've ever seen the most well dressed ' He commented enjoyed the vision of the toga and touch that I wore with whom he was playing, doing spinning on a finger like a basketball.

  "You are the same ..." he had put the index finger on his mouth, and he added:

  "Watch your mouth Miss, do not you repeat it again. Those words are not good on your mouth, "I smiled at his protectiveness and pride in every word reflected in me. He treated me like something precious that could be scratched and damaged, not knowing that it would actually going broke into a thousand pieces.

  I feel something slipping on his face, I touch and cheeks are wet, rub away those tears with anger.

  "Look! Maybe you're already looked from up there or maybe not. You know, even I do not know what to believe, I just know that something is consuming me little by little, and then I might as well let myself be carried away once and for all by the current. No one will notice my absence»

  I take a step and a pair of slip pebbles swirling down the steep descent that breaks on the rocks. I raise my hands, stretch your arms and expect him to take me, and soon I will be in his arms no longer feel pain. Everything will vanish and I can finally be free to breathe seriously.

  I close my eyes and pronounced her name shortly before he feels that narrow in my hips that lifts me up.

  "Kylian are you?" I ask, but I did not dare to open his eyes.

  Zac

  Where could it have gone? They are three times or maybe more I walk the same streets, soon someone will call supervision by dint of seeing me next to these villas. Noha called me several times to tell me if I found it, but it seems to have vanished into thin air. Shit, I had to go to her, not

  I had to leave her alone. If only I had done nothing would have happened.

  I feel the phone vibrate in his pocket, extension and after seeing that Courtney put it back on. Now I can not explain them, who knows what would understand and the last thing I want now is a scene of jealousy for a person who instead is asking for help desperately.

  Shortly after catch a glimpse of a climb that had not noticed before, it is narrow and passes between two high walls of the fence of some villas. Overcome the villas and I see that the climb continues, it is winding curves and with difficulty I walk without knowing exactly where I'm going. At the fourth corner I am almost tempted to go back, but then I say another curve just and so in the end I see it.

  Building with a tight protective tape in my hands, I'm going to call it, then I block, I see crosses and screaming. Shout something about that road, that damn corner and I am reminded
of the Courtney speech. "We have lost a friend." Calmly I try to reach it without attracting his attention and listen to the pain that is lost over the surrounding hills. His voice is heartbreaking pronouncing the bottomless hatred.

  I see that extends his arms and I understand that I do not have any more time, his body will lean forward and take it from the sides, I leverage on my strength and drag her back to me.

  "Kylian, are you?" His eyes are closed, I take it in her arms, her face leaning to shoulder me. I feel his heavy breathing slow down.

  "Do not ... do not take me to Noha ... do not take me home ... take me away though," he murmurs, his words are as heavy as boulders from the effort that is in utter them.

  I nod, and as they are in front of Noha the house settle in the seat, the connection to the seat belt and see who still has his eyes closed. I climb into the car and take her away as she asked me. On the way'm still Noha.

  "I found it..."

  "Where is it? I'm coming, tell me where you are. "He asks, I throw an eye to her, his head is leaning against the window, his face expressionless has not changed at all.

  "Listen, I understand that for you it may seem absurd, but asked me not to take it from you ..." He stops instantly.

  "Look Zac, tell me where the fuck you're carrying! I do not even know ... "then I am I to stop him.

  "Did I see her that night," I raise my voice more than I wanted to, I feel his eyes alight on me, I could not find the courage to look. He asked me not to say anything at the first opportunity and I said no worry.

  "What are you talking about?"

  "I'll call you later and let you know how he is," the liquid is so close communication. Ian notice with a message.

  "He's coming to get me," exclaims crossing his arms over his chest. I ask because I do not want to see, but maybe it's not the right time. I think for sure Noha ask Ian to where we live and may be there as Courtney. Spigot state. Should I call Courtney, maybe she could help her. As we are just outside Los Angeles I stop at the first motel that I find. She did not say a word the whole way. After leaving the documents at the Motel guy the door in the room. I wonder what I'm doing here with her, but I can not find an answer yet.

  I see his eyes crumble at the sight of the double bed in the middle of the room, I sense her embarrassment mixed with fear.

  "I'm in the next room if you need," I say to calm her pointing to the connecting door to his room.

  "You can stay ... if you want ... Sorry if I put you in the middle of my problems. Your girlfriend will certainly not be pleased to know you are right with me, "I do not look at me, and I see that wanders into the room, not knowing what to do and how to behave. Torture your hands by rubbing them against each other. It seems lost in all its pain, lost in the confusion of being here alone with me.

  "She's not my girlfriend ..." exclaimed even before those words pass for my brain. They come out spontaneously, almost like a confession that is unexpected for me.

  Chapter

  19

  Medyson

  "Never believe that the soul voice.

  Because the truth is what is most

  difficult to admit to themselves ... "

  "From the way he keeps ringing your phone does not seem that it is not your girlfriend," I say, feeling the vibration of his phone that only stops for a few seconds before resuming.

  "You should call her, so much will have already advised Noha 'looks at me a moment, those green eyes are in sharp contrast to the amber complexion of his body. I had not realized its color, or the like tends to arch his eyebrow taken by the nervous or like drumming his hands on the wheel to the beat. I really noticed these things about him? And when?

  She takes the phone from his pocket, read the name on the display, then looks at me.

  "Give me a minute," leaves the room, I look around. I wonder what the heck I both jumped in mind. Why are they so stupid? I should be at my house instead of staying here ... here with him. Because he? Why do you always find myself in front of my worst moments? I hear her voice that lifts a pair of shades. I approached the door and try to understand.

  "Courtney, what are you saying? It is your friend because you behave like this? "I pull the curtain of the window overlooking the parking lot. He runs his hand through his hair and do almost exasperated.

  "You're overreacting do not you think?" I just to understand that phrase. I take my phone and call a taxi. Miss the phone reassures me that in ten minutes and will be here. Thank you and out.

  I grab my bag and I leave the room, the next step without looking back.

  "I'll call you later," I hear him say. His footsteps behind me are getting closer.

  "Where are you going?" I do not answer, and increased the pace until the end of the parking lot waiting for the taxi.

  "Will you stop please?" I feel the hand that touches my wrist, I raise portraying him and I spun around.

  "Do not touch me! 'Thunder, Zac raises his hands in apology.

  "Where are you going?"

  "Home!" I say dry, crossing her arms and looked toward the road in front of us.

  "It was you who asked me to bring you here, why are you angry?" He murmurs, his voice is so calm, too calm dick for how I feel.

  "Now I want to go home. I changed my mind all right? "

  "You're running away ... again," he says, look at him, I see his eyes penetrate mine.

  "I ... do not know shit about me, so keep well for you your opinion" I move kept walking but his hand shall hold me back.

  "You can not run forever, you know?" I turn into a shooting slamming against his mighty chest.

  "What do you care, you tell me?" Almost scream a few centimeters from his face. I can feel her warm breath on his face, the eyes close instincts just for a moment, I want to enjoy this feeling. The first, which is able to relax every part of my body. Only a moment before returning to reality, I repeat in my head.

  His hand rests on the cheek, I look and I look so pathetic that almost I myself do me nauseous. It is here to pity and I do not want anyone's pity. I step back and see the disappointment that appears on his face.

  "Your girlfriend ..." tries to interrupt but I raise my hand to shut him up and ongoing, "no one would be justified, as you have done little you do if there was something more than a" friendship I see the headlights of the taxi from behind his shoulders. The walk past and this time does not stop me. I climb into the car as fast as I can. I leave the car park and I turn to see him only once, look at the car away.

  In the way home, I try to give me an explanation of everything that happened.

  I just needed to get high with that stupid tablet. Switch off for a moment my brain but all I backfired. I believe that for a second time if he had not found me, I would not be here now. In him, I see the only person who can believe me and understand me. Maybe because it was the first to see the real signs of what happened to me. I pay the ride to the taxi driver and go down, the Noha machine is in my parking lot. As soon as he sees me off the car and came towards me.

  "I do not want paternalistic" I say, take me and pulls me into his arms. He squeezes, as he had never done.

  "Sorry, it's my fault, Daniel had not ..." you hold, the voice trembles and I wonder how he knows the tablet. Maybe he saw me.

  "It's my fault, mine alone Noha '

  "Shhh" He pulls me off and the hair from her face, bent his gaze up to meet my eyes.

  "I'm here for you, you know? you must not run away, do not you ever do! "it seems almost begging.

  I let his hands caress my cheek, it's a different feeling from the one I had when was the Zac hand to fall upon me.

  I open the door, Noha into the house and when I turn to see it close again, Zac standing at the back entrance of the driveway with his hands in his jeans pockets. He turns and walks away, disappearing in the darkness of the night. Why did he come here? And since when was there? I close the door, lay my head on for a moment, I have to order through thoughts. But it is not easy if I continue to feel
the warmth of her breath on his face as if he were here.

  Zac

  I see the taxi away, I did not stop. Why did not I say anything? It's true I see myself with Courtney, but ever since I saw her at her home, sucked from the pain, I have not stopped to see that look everywhere. I just close your eyes for a moment and look at what is in front of me pleading with me not to say anything.

  I take my documents from the Motel type and jump in the car. I can not leave her alone. Surely you would drink. I press hard on the accelerator, I break all speed limits. Chamfer the climb that leads to her house. Parking before the driveway as I get out of the car I see the taxi leaves. Increase the pace and as they are not far ... I see it in the arms of Noha. He squeezes her, then pulls a strand of hair from her face, she did not look away from his face that continues to fondle her.

  I remain stiff, still, I would like to leave but my feet do not cooperate.

  When he enters the house and she turns to close the door at that moment that I know he saw me. I can not do anything but leave. I turn with a picture of her on the doorstep. I know not what I expected? Finally, I do not even know her. I knew his name by accident and I do not know if she knows mine.

  The phone vibrates in his jeans pocket and take it quickly, it seems as if a part of me you expect it to be her, but then realized that would not be possible, it does not even have my number.

  'Courtney'

  "Are you okay Zac?" His voice is strange as if she had been crying all the time.

  "Yes ... I do, but what do you have?" I turn on the machine and go to his house.

  "I need to see you ..." he mutters before closing the conversation, before I get there I can. I find the entrance gate, wearing only panties and a black tank top. I leave the car almost in the middle of the road and I rush to her. Trapped her face in her hands.

  "What happens? Why are you out here half naked "I ask, confused to find it in that state. I throw my arms around him and hear his sobs hiding in the neck cavity.