My place in the life
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became me account that I liked, that I tried a strange call toward of him that I had never tried until you/he/she had not kissed me.
It was not tender in the movements but definite and irruento. He/she now kissed me on the neck, now on the mouth and so street.
Its hands started to explore my body, then it whispered me:
«You make me go crazy. I would like.»
I didn't let him end the sentence and I withdrew me from him.
«Excuse Patrick but I don't feel her/it to me. I have to go!»
I did for racing away but he grabbed me for an arm.
«I beg you to forgive Feels happy me! I didn't want to hurt your feelings but it is true what I have said. Will you return here?»
I didn't know what to answer. I tried a strong attraction toward of him, but I was afraid.
«Give me some time.» it is said this raced away.
I had forgotten the jacket in the study but I could not return back. The day was rather cold and a light nebbiolina was going down on the city.
While the autos passed me near I kept on asking me the why of what had happened; I had never acknowledged anything and so much less I would have been able to imagine a thing of the kind.
I am always liked he but I saw him/it how an unattainable finishing line for me. He was a man, me a ragazzina, even though under certain aspects I/you could already seem a woman.
I raced to house with that thoughts that turned me in the head, while a light headache started to torment me.
I still felt me confused, in guilt and I had need to talk to someone. I had to go from Laura, she would have helped me or at least comforted as always.
Going out I met Stephen that a passage offered me.
«You seem down me some. What is there?»
«Nothing worrisome. I need only to talk some to Laura.»
«Something has happened, then.»
«No, but. The feels me terribly in guilt!»
«In guilt for thing?»
«I know him/it that it is absurd but I believe to have made a blame to Mark.»
«To Mark? As it is possible? What you could have combined?»
«To I can tell you him, you are as a brother.»
«Certain and you know that you can trust me.»
«Thanks. Has happened that Patrick has kissed me.»
After an instant of silence Stephen bursted to laugh.
«That's all? Because you have to worry you?»
«It seems me to have betrayed the trust of Mark. After all, after him, I have not had serious histories anymore, rather I have never had a boy, except some" flirtation" from Saturday evening. This time, however, I have warned a lot of attraction and for this I believe to have made a wrong thing.»
«It is not correct to reason this way. Before thing: you are free to go out with whom want, also because I believe that Mark makes the same thing. They are almost two years that you don't see you and it is normal that each of you tries to refer himself/herself/themselves a life. Second thing: you are a stupendous girl and I don't succeed in understanding because you have to make you so many problems. You could have all the boys of' world but you I am you persist you to wait for of it a solo. Third thing: you live your life day for day, not to make to escape you the occasions and above all had a good time. When it will be the moment you will return with Mark, if the destiny will want so, but you now have need to have your experiences and above all to live your life.»
I reflected on the words that you/he/she had told me.
«Thanks Stephen, is perhaps right. I should take this whole matter with more lightness. You/he/she has made very well me talk to you and I still thank you. This time Laura won't have anything to say, because you have already thought there you. Hi!»
I gone down by the car after having given a kiss on his cheek. I was happy because I realized not to have two friends but two guardian angels.
I raced above for the staircases that brought to the lodging of Laura, I played and his/her mother came to open the door.
«Hi it Feels happy, it enters. How are you?»
«Benone. Can I see Laura?»
«But certain, it is in room. I take advantage to go out to run two errands of it, so much there are you.»
«Lady goes, I will also mind the ill one.»
Laura was in the bed, sat and you/he/she was reading one of that newspapers of gossips. He/she hardly saw me the the face he illuminated.
«It feels happy, that surprise. How is it going?»
«There is not badly and you? Are you taking back yourself? Do I/you/he/she miss us a lot, do you know?»
«I know him/it, it is terrible not to have me among the feet. However I think about being able to go out at the most between two or three days. Does thing tell me of beautiful?»
Surely you/he/she had already realized something seeing my less laughing face of the usual one.
«Thin Stephen has accompanied here me and, to be sincere, has helped a lot me.»
«Thing you have combined this time?»
In an instant I explained her every thing, all of a breath.
«Patrick has kissed me and I have accursedly felt in guilt toward Mark. Not for the fact that there are kissed but really because I have tried a strong attraction toward of him and it don't seem me correct.»
«I don't succeed in believing us! That wonder of man has kissed you and you think about a boy that lives to the other head of the world. You are more crazy person of me.»
«I know him/it that I should be happy, also Stephen has told that my experiences I should live, not to make me so many problems and above all not to think about Mark, that one day will return and if God will want we could return together.»
«As I envy you Feels happy! You have the possibility to have you an experience with a true man and if you listen you don't allow yourself to me to escape this occasion. At least try us, if you don't want then to repent you of it.»
«I don't know him/it. The thing perhaps frightens me some. He is a man and he/she thinks what they would say my parents. It would be the end of the world!»
«You not to say anything. Make you your adventure of hidden without to make to see you from anybody and if it will work then you will go out unsecured. For your parents I would not worry me, also because it seems me that they see of good eye our teacher. Oh it Feels happy, as I would like to be to your place!»
«Stop her/it Laura! If Stephen feels you strikes by lightning yourself! I don't know what to do, should speak perhaps of it really with Patrick. There has been only after all a kiss and even you/he/she has already forgotten everything.»
«I don't believe.» Laura responded me with malicious air.
They perhaps had reason both Laura and Stephen, I had to live my life without depriving me some occasions that introduced me. I also had to have some experience and surely I didn't have to hock me with anybody. I was young and I still had a whole life before.
I spent the rest of the day to house of Laura. We spoke of the school, of the friends, of Saturday evening that he was approaching and of our future.
«Last week Stephen and I have spoken seriously of our history. You/he/she has told me that he/she would like to be forever with me. Do I love him but you don't believe that has sacrificed my youth for a boy?»
«No, not to even say him/it. You have had the fortune to meet the boy of your life when you were still a ragazzina instead of owing to wait for him/it for the whole life. You will have had less experiences of me or of any other girl of our age but you are happy and you don't have to regret nothing.»
«I am happy, however some times I wonder me what I would have done if I/you was not gone out with Stephen. Even to this time I would be a stray girl, with the colored hair, fifteen shed piercing for the body and the angry look always.»
«I don't see us to you really in the cloths of a punk and then I believe that you would be as six, also without him.»
«Next year he will enroll
him in the institute of physical education and I/you/they is convinced more and more to want to also do him/it me. You thing you say of it?»
«I say that you do well. However you don't have to follow only a certain road because him ago also Stephen, otherwise in this case you could repent you of your choice.»
«I/you/they are firmly convinced to want to attend that school, also because the possibilities to find a job are good; ache that goes I will open a gym. Do you like as it conceives?»
«Grandiose! So I will never pay and I will be always in perfect form.»
«You immediately would take advantage of it, accursed!»
We started to launch us pillows, dolls of roll and plush, until we didn't burst to laugh under the eyes amused of the mother of Laura that had just reentered.
I armed me of the whole courage that I had and definite to go to the photographic laboratory with the excuse to have to take back the jacket. In my cuor I feared to meet Patrick but I also hoped for there.
I thought about thing I would have been able to tell him when I would have seen him, as I would be me due to behave and above all thing would have done him.
I came in front of the door and for an instant it passed me for the head the idea to escape away and not to pass sooner or later anymore for that place but so much I would have had to face the situation and Patrick.
I turned the handle and the door it opened, therefore Patrick had to be himself/herself/themselves to the inside.
«Permission! Is Patrick, here?»
My teacher immediately arrived in the saletta; you/he/she held some photos.
«It feels happy, finally. I was ordering your last job and I hoped for so much that you