The Love Pill

by Arizona Tape

  ‘Dot on i. Six letters, first letter a T, second an I and third again a T.’ I questioned, asking the ones I didn’t know myself.

  ‘Tittle.’

  I looked at her, raised my eyebrow and gave her a puzzled look. How the hell did she know this much?

  ‘Now you are just making things up.’ I snorted, shaking my head.

  ‘Oh, I’m not. That really is the answer.’ she whispered, kissing me gently in my neck, sending chills down my spine and making me totally forget about the crossword. The newspaper and pen must have fallen on the ground, because when Cara pressed her body against mine, they were definitely gone.

  ‘Hmm, you like it when I kiss you here?’ she softly moaned against my skin while her fingers travelled to the hem of my shirt. Slowly she let her fingers stroll over my lower back, barely touching me. I nodded, trying to control the shivers running through my body. She grinned and I felt her tongue slide up to the sweet spot right behind my ear where she started sucking on the soft flesh.

  I closed my eyes, enjoying every second of it, but trying to pretend that it didn’t affect me that much. At an unguarded moment, she suddenly planted her teeth right on the spot where she had been placing the hickey. A moan slipped out of my mouth, making her firmly dig her nails in my back and pulling me closer into her.

  ‘It is so easy to get you flustered, sweetie.’ she teased, her warm breath on my ear. She connected our mouths and without hesitation, I moved my lips against hers. Her tongue played with mine while she did some exploration in the insides of my mouth. Her hands travelled to my stomach and lifted up my shirt, exposing my belly. Her lips left my mouth and she gave short, tender kisses on my naked stomach.

  Automatically I lifted my body up to get closer and every time her lips touched my skin, I let out a soft moan. Together her hands and lips made their way up, leaving a burning trail. When her lips almost reached my breasts I knew I had to intervene or I would take her here and now on this very couch.

  I abruptly shot up. ‘Isn’t the rice ready?’ I squeaked, saying the first thing that came to mind. She looked at her watch and let her hand travel through her hair.

  ‘Eh…Yeah, you are probably right. I’ll just, you know, go and check.’ she said, pointing awkwardly in the direction of the kitchen.

  I nodded and pulled my shirt down, covering up my stomach. Cara stood up and went to the kitchen, giving me some time to cool down and suppress the arousal spreading through my entire body. I took another big sip from my glass, trying to calm myself.

  After dinner, we sat back in the couch and I swung my legs over her lap, like I always did. Somehow, it felt like the most natural thing in the world.

  ‘Can I ask you something?’

  Cara nodded, looking intensely at me with her bright, green eyes. God, she was so beautiful. What did a woman like her see in someone as plain as me, anyway?

  ‘Why are you so interested in me?’ I dared asking, trying to get some answers. I don’t know where I got the confidence from, but I just needed to know what made her ask me out over and over again. Cara smiled and pulled me onto her lap, manoeuvring me in a straddling position.

  ‘Why wouldn’t I?’ she muttered, letting her hands travel from my waist up to my shoulders.

  ‘You are smart…Funny…Sweet…’ she whispered, giving me short pecks after each adjective. She nibbled on my collarbone, waking up the butterflies. Not that they ever actually went to sleep when I was around her.

  ‘Not to mention extremely gorgeous.’

  This comment made me pull away and I rolled my eyes.

  ‘Yeah right.’ I sarcastically snorted.

  ‘I mean it. Why don’t you guess what word I use in my head when I think about you.’ Cara said, before hungrily attacking my lips and running her hands all over my body.

  ‘The word I’m looking for is a synonym for gorgeous. Eight letters.’ she breathed in between her hot kisses. Her hands had found their way down my ass and were making a kneading motion, right next to my core, just not touching. I gasped for air, not able to use my vocal cords.

  ‘I’ll just tell you. The word is stunning.’ she smirked when I didn’t give any answer.

  In the mean time, she placed warm kisses down my neck. Her hands travelled closer to my core, almost touching it. Her mouth inched closer and closer to my breasts. Her body pressed tightly against mine. The connection I experienced was overwhelming and I felt myself slip into an unknown haze. A haze where everything disappeared except Cara and her talented fingers, moist lips, intoxicating scent, and desirable body.

  Even though this hadn’t been on my agenda, I was already beyond a point where I was able to stop myself. And quite frankly? I didn’t want to.

  24. The Standard

  Cara Hemlock

  ‘Wanna know how the master eats pussy? Hehe.’

  I closed my eyes, trying to block Ruben out. He was rather disturbing.

  ‘This tongue knows how to lick the ladies.’ He went on, sticking his tongue out and making a rapid motion. I put my hands over my ears and started singing.

  ‘Lalalala. I can’t hear you. Lalalala, not listening.’ I sang as a little child.

  He stepped right in front of me and repeated the crude motion. Since my hands were already covering my ears, I could only shut my eyes, but I wasn’t quickly enough. The image of his swirling tongue was probably burned in my mind forever. He smirked and pulled my hands away from my head.

  ‘Do you know how to please a woman down there?’ Ruben inquired, shamelessly looking at my private parts.

  ‘Stop looking! You perverted asshole!’ I said, slapping his shoulder in disgust. He laughed and rolled his eyes, turning around and sitting back down in a chair.

  ‘Have you ever shared a bed with a woman?’ he asked, looking carelessly at his fingernails.

  I shook my head, snorting. ‘No I haven’t.’

  ‘Well, let me enlighten you?’ Ruben said, bringing his hand to his mouth, putting up the index and middle finger and quickly moving his tongue from the left to the right.

  ‘Only if you stop with the obscene gestures. I don’t have to see your “special moves”.’ I gave in, making quotation marks with my fingers. I could use his insight. After all, Lexi thought I had been with women before, so I had to come over confident. Like I knew what I was doing.

  Ruben’s face lit up like a child on Christmas and rubbed his hands together, grinning like a mad scientist. I looked at the ceiling and prepared myself that for once I was gonna listen to Ruben’s sex talk.

  —

  I yawned and stretched my body, feeling a comfortable, dull ache. After I had made the move on Lexi, there was no stopping her. She quickly took the lead and made my body experience things that no man had ever been able to.

  I looked at the naked figure laying next to me on her stomach, still soundly asleep. I let my fingers slowly trail over her spine, running from her shoulder to her lower bare back. To her incredibly sexy, lower back. It was perhaps the sexiest part of her whole body.

  I carefully slid out of bed, trying not to wake her and put on some fresh underwear. I walked out off my bedroom, following the trail of clothes while picking them up. Black panties followed by her skirt, my bra and blouse chilling on the ground, her lacy bra carelessly thrown over my couch.

  I smiled, recalling the path we made last night, starting on my couch and ending naked in my bed. I dropped her clothes on a pile next to my couch and glanced at my bedroom door. No movement, indicating that she was still deep asleep. I threw on a large shirt and walked into my kitchen to make coffee. The scent of fresh coffee must have woken up Lexi, because she sleepily stumbled out of the bedroom.

  ‘What time is it?’ she mumbled, rubbing her eyes.

  ‘Ehmm…It’s, ehmm, yeah, around 7 o’clock.’ I stuttered, trying not to stare at my naked lover. I almost succeeded, but since I’m only human, I couldn’t stop myself and let my eyes run freely over her body. I quickly turned around and picked up an
empty cup and filled it with coffee. She walked towards me and wrapped her arms around my waist, kissing me tenderly on my cheek.

  ‘Morning. You have any idea where I could find my clothes?’ she whispered in my ear, her voice still raspy from the sleep.

  ‘Yes, ehmm. They are, ehmm. There. Couch.’ I managed to choke out, trying to ignore her warm, naked body pressed against my back.

  ‘Coffee?’ I weakly proposed, raising the cup, not daring to turn around. She kissed my shoulder and extended her arm, taking the cup.

  ‘Thanks.’ she said and walked towards my couch, giving me a great view of her ass. I cleared my throat, trying to tear my eyes away from her swaying hips, but I was caught by her hypnotising walk.

  ‘Can I take a shower?’ Lexi asked, turning around and exposing her lean body. I quickly looked away, not wanting to gawk at her like an idiot and tried to fixate on my cup of coffee.

  Lexi grinned and walked back towards me, pushing my head up with her index finger.

  ‘I think you made yourself familiar with every inch of my body last night, you can look all you want.’ she seductively said, kissing me on my lips, pressing her luscious body against me.

  I wished my shirt wasn’t this thin, so that I couldn’t feel her firm nipples prod through the fabric, but at the same time, I wished I was still naked.

  ‘Ehh, I do enjoy looking at you. And yes, you can take a shower. Why don’t I show you my bathroom.’ I grinned, placing my hands on her hips and turning her around, pushing her to my bathroom door.

  I think I was gonna enjoy this shower.

  —

  ‘Work. I have work. I should get going. Because I have work.’ Lexi muttered, trying to pry herself away from my kissing lips. I smirked and quickly nibbled on her earlobe. She moaned and pressed herself closer into me. God, this was killing me.

  ‘Work. Stop kissing me, Cara.’ she whispered while letting her fingers walk over my hip. I rolled my eyes and pulled away, giving us both some breathing space.

  ‘Fine, fine. Spoilsport.’ I smirked and stood up, untangling our bodies. She also stood up, stretching her sexy body before putting her clothes back on.

  ‘When am I gonna see you again?’ I questioned, keeping my voice light and playful. She winked and let her hands seductively trail up my body.

  ‘You are seeing me right now.’ she whispered, making the hairs on my arm stand up. God, she was so sexy.

  ‘You know what I mean, sweetie.’ I grinned, hiding the turmoil I had inside me.

  ‘Call me later.’ she teased, removing her body from mine and walking towards the door. I quickly ran after her and caught her just before she walked out of my apartment. A couple of hot kisses later she was walking down the hallway. I closed the door and leant back, feeling a mixture of satisfaction and despair. Last night was amazing, but I very well knew why. The love pill must have taken immediate effect.

  Normally I gave people the love pill after a couple of days, which would strengthen their attraction, give them the feeling that we had a lot in common. After I got the information, I would stop giving the love pill and the ‘love’ they experienced would fade away. I’d disappear from their lives and when they remembered me I would just be a short fling. An intense, but nonetheless short fling.

  Things with Lexi were gonna be so different. I had known her about two months, had been texting her every day, calling her regularly, spending as much time with her as I could. The weeks before today, when I had given her the pill, had existed in flirting and dating. All these things were untainted by the chemicals in the love pill, which meant they were taken in with full effect. When I would cut her off after the two months of dating and the phantom love it would hurt. It would hurt and leave a nice, big scar. Note the sarcasm.

  Not to forget the impact that she made on my life. Not that she would ever know…She wouldn’t believe a word that came out of my mouth after I told her about the love pill. I wasn’t even sure if I could tell her about it. I don’t even know if our company had rules about it. I had never thought about this issue because I had never met anyone who made me question it.

  Although I felt extremely bad about lying and manipulating Lexi, I couldn’t help it when the excitement bubbles started rising and the butterflies started fluttering. It was official. Lexi Zellichman was falling in love with me. I knew I had to feel guilty but I just couldn’t stop smiling.

  No man ever had given me this feeling. I’m not even sure that after Lexi I could go back to dating men…But on the other hand, I wasn’t a lesbian.

  I don’t think I have ever met another woman to whom I was attracted to. There was just something about Lexi that I couldn’t resist. I think it was the small of her back. Who knew that someone’s back could be so sexy?

  After all the conclusions, I knew what this meant. Lexi was gonna be the person to whom I was gonna compare my future lovers. Completely out of the blue, she had become the standard.

  My standard.

  ‘Damn it, Lexi.’ I whispered.

  25. Invisible in a Crowd

  Cara Hemlock

  I kept secretly slipping the pill in her drinks, before handing them over to her. There was no use for a daily dose, but about once a week, I would empty the powder and my betrayal into her glass. The change had been very noticeable too. Before the love pill she had been rather shy, but ever since I gave her the pill, she had become the seducing queen. Whispering in my ear, letting her fingers stroll over my body and giving me addicting kisses.

  Was I enjoying it? Hell yes.

  ‘My dad would have liked you.’ Lexi casually muttered while she kept staring at the television.

  ‘Why is that?’ I curiously asked, looking at her. Her eyes just kept following Maura Isles, a character in the TV series Rizzoli&Isles.

  ‘They are so gay and in love, it’s so obvious.’ she said, in the same tone when she had spoken about her father. I nodded, discarding the comment about Jane and Maura. Everyone knew they were practically married.

  ‘Yeah, yeah. Why would your father have liked me?’ I inquired further, moving the topic back to her dad.

  ‘He would have seen how happy you make me. That would have been enough for him to like you.’ Lexi answered, still looking at the screen, pretending like she didn’t just give me a huge compliment.

  ‘Thanks. What was he like? Your father, I mean.’ I said, trying to keep my voice as casual as hers, but inside I was cheering. I just got her father’s stamp of approval! Woohoo!

  Another part of me was also cheering, and that was the part still dedicated to my work. I knew I had to talk to her about it, not just because I loved hearing it, but because this was actually related to work, for once.

  ‘He was a strong man. Proud. Loyal. He loved our country and enjoyed his work.’ Lexi said, reminiscing about her father.

  If her father were still alive, he would have admired me for doing what I did. Yet here I was, screwing over his daughter to get information for the country he loved so much. I couldn’t help but note the irony.

  ‘You know you can always talk to me, right?’ I forced out, seemingly honest. Lexi nodded gratefully and kissed me gently on my cheek.

  ‘I know. Maybe another time though. I’m not yet ready to talk about my dad.’ she muttered, focusing her attention back on the screen. I bit my lip and placed a sweet kiss on her cheek, pulling her closer to me.

  ‘Why don’t you start by talking about the things in his life, like his profession? We can gradually work up to talking about him?’ I proposed in a comforting way, with only an underlying hint of inquiry.

  ‘Can’t really talk about his work. He made me promise not to tell anyone. Government stuff.’ Lexi casually mentioned, her eyes fixed on the television.

  ‘If you can’t tell anyone, then why did he tell you?’ I curiously asked, keeping up my nonchalant act.

  ‘There was only one man with whom I could talk about his work. But that guy never showed up. Damn, why does Jane keep going home alo
ne?’

  ‘She is an independent woman. Is his work so important that you can’t tell anyone?’ I jokingly asked, trying to keep the two topics alive, so I wouldn’t come over as too suspicious.

  ‘Yeah, it is. Independent, independent, she should be cautious, not independent.’ Lexi scoffed, shaking her head in disapproval. Although we were having a serious conversation about her father, I couldn’t help but smirk when she gave the live commentary. Normally I hate it when people keep talking during movies, but she was just too funny.

  ‘She has a gun, she is being cautious. Anyway, maybe you should reach out to that man? If it’s that important.’ I lightly proposed, while my brain started making overtime.