Moth

by Jennifer Foor

  “That’s not true. I think I might be able to help with that. I know exactly where he’ll be in two weeks.”

  My stomach knots up. Elation can’t begin to describe what it feels like to hear that. “Where?”

  “Guatemala. All of the scientists from each location are going to meet with him. It’s a big step for his company. The new product is ready to ship. Everything will be in place.”

  “I assume that’s why they were pressing you to take me out. Alizar knows the DEA would be all over Virginia instead of back in Guatemala. Smart move.”

  “For what it’s worth I had second thoughts. I tried to get you to walk away from me.”

  I flash her a quick smile. It’s not because I’m pleased, but more so appreciative. “We’ve both lied to each other. We can’t take back what’s done.”

  “I made a huge mistake. I know that, but none of it means anything if you don’t believe I wanted to be with you. I could have taken you out without a second’s thought, but I didn’t. I was trying to find a way to keep you safe without telling you who I was. I knew nothing would ever come of this, and maybe I’m the most selfish person on this earth, but I wanted to have it while I could.”

  I take her hand, because it’s the only thing that feels right. How am I to tell her that I feel exactly the same? How am I supposed to conceive letting my guard down again when I know this could be another one of her tricks?

  I don’t have to wait long for the answer. She nestles her body close to mine and wraps her free arm around my back. Holding her there, feeling her in my arms reminds me of all the reasons I vowed to keep her safe. This situation is majorly fucked up. I can’t predict what’s going to happen next, but I know we only have a short window to figure it out before life gets in the way. Right now we’re safe. We can’t be located, and it needs to stay that way. I’ll contact the guys and let them know the situation first thing in the morning. For now I need time to recuperate. I need to take this in and figure out my end game.

  I wake to the sun shining in through the bedroom window. I’m alone and sit up with worry. I search the room hoping she’s close, but discover the worst. It only takes me a second to rush out of the room to find her. After she ran out of the house into the cold conditions without clothes I’m worried what she’s capable of if she fears what I’m planning to do to her. Little does she know I have yet to decide. If things were different I’d wonder if there was a way to help her through this. Now I’m not sure anything can be done. Neither one of us have been honest from the beginning. How to even begin to build a friendship out of that is beyond my recognition. I didn’t come into this looking for romance and I know that now I have to walk away from it as well, but it doesn’t stop me from worrying about her. She’s done something to me, and I can’t shake my inability to let it go.

  I find Nina in the kitchen. She’s doing her best to make coffee by hand. I hear her cursing before I get it all the way down the stairs. When I come up behind her she startles and screams, placing her hand on her heart as if to slow it down. “Oh my god. You can’t sneak up on someone like that.”

  I’m laughing to myself while removing the pot from her hands. “Here, let me have a go.”

  I focus on the coffee while she hops up to sit on the old countertop. I want to tell her it’s probably not secure, but she’s too cute to move. After we have two piping hot cups of coffee, I come to stand in front of her. My hands touch her knees as I focus my attention on her face. “I’ve been doing some thinking since last night. I think we need to remain here until I can come up with a new game plan. Are you okay with that, or do you plan on running around outside naked again, because I’m going to be honest and say it sucked having to chase you down.”

  “I won’t be doing that again. My leg is killing me and it’s pretty embarrassing to recall.” She snickers. “About that. You can’t blame me for being hurt and confused, and especially scared. I never expected to care about you, Moth. It wasn’t the plan.”

  I’m taken back by her acknowledgment. She’s admitting she has feelings for me already and as nice as it feels I have to be leery.

  “Can we agree to stay safe indoors?”

  “I suppose if you can promise to be nice.”

  “I’ve been thinking too. We got off to a pretty bad start. Maybe we should take the next couple of days to smooth things over.”

  We’re inches apart. My hands are still on her knees. This isn’t how strangers should act around each other, but we’re not really strangers. I know her intimately, and it might be assbackwards, but it’s something. “I’m sorry about our little brawl last night. I lost my shit.”

  “I deserved it. It’s not every day we’re thrown into this type of situation. I wouldn’t have blamed you if you took me out and left me for dead. I know I hurt you and led you on. I used you.”

  “I used you too, Nina. It goes both ways. I had every intention of inserting myself into your life to pump you for information we could use for our operation. I spied on you. I lied about who I was.”

  She places her finger over my lips. “I forgive you. We can stand here and marvel about who did what for the rest of the day, or we can make the best out of our predicament.”

  I’m staring into those big brown eyes as I respond. “What do you have in mind?”

  She takes her hands and runs them down my abdomen until she’s at the button to my pants. She’s holding them there, as if she’s contemplating her next move on my reaction. “My time on this earth could be limited. I don’t want to waste it by being afraid. There’s one thing we’ve done together that neither of us had to lie about.”

  She’s talking about fucking. I’m hearing her loud and clear. “And what will this type of activity solve?”

  “Maybe nothing. We won’t know until we give it a go.”

  “Didn’t you say you hated my cocky attitude?” I ask.

  She shrugs with an ornery grin. “I did, but I’ll never deny your God given talents either. Besides, cocky and cock are two different things.”

  When I kiss her I feel relieved. This will solve nothing. If anything, it will complicate our relationship more. For now I’m willing to challenge my inclinations. She’s too good to resist, and I’m done fighting. “You haven’t seen anything yet, babe.”

  Chapter 20

  Being naked with Nina feels natural. Unlike other women I fuck, being with her makes me lose all sense of emotions. I’m drawn to her, as if she’s the one thing in the world I don’t want to give up. I can’t understand how someone I barely know can have such a hold over me this soon, but at this point I’m not willing to stop and question it. It’s time to abandon my gut inclinations and let whatever is happening between us move forward, because in hindsight this might be the last time we’re ever able to do this. Our time on this earth is probably limited. We’re both in too deep, and even if we can take down Alizar, there’s no telling what his second in command will do.

  With every kiss my nerve endings come to life like an electrical charge. I can feel the hair standing up on my arms as Nina glides her fingernails over my skin. Her puffy lips course over mine in a taunting manner, drawing me in for a deeper embrace.

  Before I know it my pants are unfastened and I’m ripping off the T-shirt she’s wearing. We’ve just gotten out of bed and she hasn’t had time to put on a bra. As my hands cup each one of her mounds, I begin to writhe with excitement. My mouth waters as I draw my mouth up to one of them, sucking the tip until I hear her breathe in deeply. I could spend the entire day with my face against these supple tits. Her nipples harden like pebbles, and my gut reaction causes me to sample each of them as if they’re a new undiscovered flavor. I’m obsessed with them, flicking my thumb over each while inching away to watch her head falling back as she enjoys the attention.

  I’m staring at her body now, only a pair of white panties stand between me having what I want. I dip down and force her legs apart. Her thighs widen as if she’s opening the gates and allowing
me entrance. For a second I pretend I’m royalty and I’ve come to claim my kingdom. I lick over the cotton fabric of her underwear, getting a rise out of her, and mostly the same reaction out of my cock. It jerks to remind me it requires attention as well, though I ignore it to conquer my own desperate desires for fulfillment.

  Being with Nina comes naturally. It’s not about getting laid, but more about being satisfied beyond recognition. She’s forbidden fruit. She always has been in a sense, except now she’s let me in. It’s different yet still just as dangerous. I’m aware if we continue on this path we’ll get greedy. The feeling is too mutual to deny. I’ll crave her, and with our paths headed in different directions I know it will fuck me up horrendously. I’ve never felt this way about a woman. I’ve never allowed myself to become attached, especially only after knowing her a short amount of time. As I drag my lips against the fabric once again, taking in the sweet scent of nectar, I’m falling deeper. Our connection may be physical. I’m not saying it’s the right way to start any kind of relationship, but for me it’s the only way I know it can happen.

  I feel her hands running over my scalp. She’s grabbing at my ears while I continue to lick and tease her hidden pussy.

  There’s a wet spot where I’ve focused on. I know part of it is from my tongue, but as I repeat the process I begin to taste her arousal and it sends me over the edge. I stand and push her back as far as she can lean. I take both of her legs and raise them until they’re hitting the top cabinets. She’s extremely flexible and I’m enjoying discovering just how much.

  This time I bring my lips up against her soaked panties and use my teeth to grab at them. My body begins to burn with desire for more, so I use my bottom lip to feel around the area. My tongue lathers up the spot, and as I draw back and focus I can see every part of her pussy through the wet fabric. This sends a constant ache to my cock, which in turn causes me to react accordingly. I bring my lips closer again and begin eating her pussy through the fabric, as if it’s the only way it can happen. My eyes travel up her body until I catch a glimpse of her coming undone. I’m licking right at her dripping hole, sucking her honey through the cotton like I’m a starved peasant. She’s tugging at my ears, and as pain resonates in both of them I know she’s already coming unhinged. While my lips remain locked on her sweet cunt I feel her pussy muscles contracting. A gush of hot lava pads my mouth as I continue to bring pleasure and ecstasy to her precious flower.

  When I can’t resist any longer, I use my teeth to shove over the fabric. Her eyes are on mine as I narrow my tongue in for a direct sample. Her pussy is swollen, her clit enlarged. I suck it in my mouth and close my eyes as I apply pressure. Her legs begin to shake as she holds them, her whole body reacting to this voluntary act. I want her to scream out my name and know exactly who it belongs to. I need to be certain no other man has ever been able to give her this kind of satisfaction. If this is the last thing I do on earth I’ll have something to be proud of, because from the moment I first laid eyes on this woman she’s all I’ve been able to think about.

  I’m being directed to her hungry lips by my ears. They sting and I’m positive there are probably little bleeding scratches from her fingernails when I gave her the second orgasm. I don’t wipe her juices from my face before our mouths crash together. Why bother when she likes tasting herself? Her legs finally relax at my sides as our unhinged kiss is downright ravenous. I press my dick up against the lower cabinet to try to keep it tamed, but I’m losing the battle when I’m aware of that soaked pussy just waiting to be filled.

  When Nina pushes me away I start to think she’s playing a vicious game, but soon learn she’s just taking over the lead by offering something I’m unable to refuse. While I remain feet away, she lifts her legs back up, almost behind her head, then draws her fingers down over her pussy. Witnessing this is enough to bring me to my knees, but she doesn’t stop there. Using the juices, she slithers further until the tiny hole of her ass is glistening. She takes both hands and cups her ass, spreading her cheeks to give me an even better view. Her middle finger traces around the hole while she focuses on making sure I don’t take my eyes away from what she’s doing. “You’ve been a good boy, Moth. Here’s your reward. You want it don’t you? You want to fuck my little ass?” She bites down on her bottom lip as a moan escapes her. “Mmm, I want it so bad.”

  How am I supposed to move? I’m frozen while watching this all unfold. Finally I come to my senses and step forward. With my dick in my hand, I draw circles around her spent cunt until the tip is dripping. I grab the back of her body and pull her forward until her ass is over the edge of the counter. She’s so wet I don’t have to try hard. I take my cock and toy her hole, watching her react to me being this close to giving her what she wants, what I want. The second I break that barrier and slide inside she’s crying out. Her legs fall down over my shoulders as I begin to pump inside of her narrow asshole. We begin slapping together, which only causes me to thrust harder. I circle my thumb over her clit and shove three fingers inside of her neglected pussy while I continue with my forceful pace. It’s only a matter of time before I’m losing my shit and having to hold still. Her lips meet mine and I’m overwhelmed as she kisses me passionately until I’m able to move every part of my body again. When I pull out of her and lower her legs until they’re around my waist, I’m inclined to reevaluate the rest of the day. The guys will have to wait for a check in, because as soon as I can recuperate, I’m having her again.

  We’ve been in bed half the day. After a short nap we lay there side by side staring at each other. “You’re so beautiful,” I manage to say.

  “Thank you. So are you.” She brings her fingers down over my chest, implying she likes the way I take care of my body.

  “I can’t get enough of you.”

  “Same.” She answers with one word, and it’s all I require. I’m elated and petrified at the same time, because aside from everything I still need to do, now I’m determined to find a way to insert her into my personal life.

  “When this is over you should come to Miami.”

  Her eyes widen with surprise. “Really? You’d want to continue seeing me? I mean, I’ll probably be jobless, homeless, and running from authorities.”

  “Yeah, I guess you’re right.” I roll on my back and acknowledge what we both know to be true. This affair can’t continue, and it’s breaking me down.

  I finally sit up and stretch. “I need to check in with my team.”

  She pulls the covers up like she’s staying in bed. “Okay. I’ll wait here.”

  I trace my fingers over her exposed shoulder. “You could come downstairs with me. I have nothing to hide.”

  Nina sits up and gives me this inquisitive glare. “Seriously?”

  “Why not? You’re part of this. We need to work together. It’s important we take this guy down with whatever means necessary. While you and I lay low, I can have the rest of my team preparing to move in. I think I know how to make this work to our advantage without us having to expose our location.”

  “Are you going to explain it to me?” She seems excited, to say the least.

  “I need you to call whoever it is you’ve been working with. Tell them the job is done, and that you’ve held up your end of the bargain.”

  “They know who I am though. They’ll still be after me.”

  “Right now it won’t matter. They’re more concerned about the DEA. You’re going to send them a photo of me with a gunshot to my head.”

  I see concern in her eyes. “Wait, what?”

  “Well make it look real. We’ll do it outside and I’ll roll around in the woods to seem as if we fought.”

  “Then what?”

  “Then they’ll report it to Alizar. He’ll feel accomplished, but know my team will remain to locate and then bring my killer to justice. He’ll suspect the FBI will get involved because of your status. While he’s content we’ll finally be one step ahead of his ass.”

  She taps her fin
ger on her lips. “It could work.”

  “We only need me to be dead for a week.”

  “So you and I will remain here, together?”

  I nod and reach for her chin, lowering until my lips brush hers. As I pull away I watch her eyes fluttering open. “Is that okay with you?”

  “Very okay.”

  “Good. Let’s go make that phone call.” I stand up and turn around to address her. “Clothing is optional for the remainder of the week. Just putting it out there.”

  A pillow is tossed in my direction. I don’t know why but I feel like this plan can work. I’m still unsure how I’ll ever be able to see Nina when this whole ordeal is over, but for now I have a chance at taking down one of the most notorious king pins this world has ever known. It’s definitely a start.

  In order to have good service we have to drive away from the cabin. Since we don’t want to make two trips we’ve planned to set the scene for my murder so she’ll have her pictures.

  We use makeup she keeps in her purse to create a bullet hole in my left temple. We melt down a stick of lipstick and some maple and corn syrup for a dark colored pool of blood that will be blended into the leaves under my still body. We play out how my body will fall and land after a point blank blow to the head, and with both of our training we’re able to do it quickly.

  “I think you should take off your shirt. I’ll tell them I seduced you first.” I’m laughing as she says it.

  “You just like me naked. I see how it is.”

  “Shut up and get dead. It’s freezing and I’m kind of freaking out to see that bullet hole in your head.”

  I position myself on the cold hard ground, while Nina kneels down over me and starts making the blood pools. She drips some over my skin and then stops to make sure it all looks authentic. “Eyes open or closed?” I ask.