Reckless Abandon

by J N Owens

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  “Honestly, just so you know, all you have to do is look at me,” I say as I look over at her and smile.

  She glances in my direction and I want her more. “Yep that did it.”

  I lean in and give her a quick kiss. I’m done, completely and utterly done for. I will literally give this woman the world, all she has to do is ask. Her thumb rubs circles on my hand, I hear a giggle beside me. Nope she doesn’t even have to ask, I’m going to just give it to her, the entire fucking world.

  We start walking again, we make it to the restaurant and grab a table. We sit and drink and eat. We talk about everything. She tells me more about her family. Her sisters sound amazing, and I love how close she is to them. I tell her about my brother and sister. Their families and kids. It’s so good to just be together and have a great conversation. But it’s also good when it’s quiet too. The silence is not awkward at all. We can talk about anything or nothing. It’s so easy and comfortable. It’s never been like this before. Not even with Carol. I was with her for 9 years through college and med school, and it was never this easy. It never felt this good with her. It was always forced. I felt like she was the type of girl I should be with, so I tried to make it work with her. But at the end of the day she was just an awful person. She was mean and spoiled, and just an outright terrible person. It was like a weight when I walked away. But sitting here right now with Finley makes me realize even more how much of a mistake that would have been. Finley looks over at me and smiles, with her one dimple.

  “I’m done for the day. Are you ready to head back? Remember you promised not to keep me out late.”

  “Yes, I did indeed promise you that.” I take her hand and we head back. It’s not a long walk at all, but I take my time. Enjoying the view and the company.

  We make our way up to her room, and when we get to the door, she turns to lean in and softly presses her lips to mine. Then pulls back to look me in my eyes, “Goodnight Noah, thank you for today. It was amazing.”

  “Goodnight, Fin.” I turn to walk away,

  “Noah,” I look back, she is standing in the open doorway, “Do want to come in?”

  Fuck me. Of course I do.

  “Oh Finley, if you only knew how much I do.” She turns to walk in, looking back over her shoulder.

  “Well, what are you waiting for?” she asks, letting her bathing suit fall to the floor as she makes her way to the bedroom. It doesn’t take me long to follow, shutting the door behind me. I rush up behind her, throwing her over my shoulder, she squeals like a teenager. I fucking love it. I adore this playful side of her. I take her into the bedroom and throw her on the bed. She is gorgeous. Like a fantasy, or a wet dream I don’t want to wake from. I just stand there and look at her. Lying there, naked and beautiful.

  She props herself up on her elbows, raises an eyebrow, “Are you going to stand there and look all night or do something?”

  Hell yes, I’m going to do something. I pull my shirt off and drop my shorts to the floor. I slowly climb up the bed. Making my way up to her. I lay between her legs, pushing between them. Her soft skin against mine has every nerve in me sending off sparks. My dick is telling my brain to fuck, fuck, fuck. My brain is saying to take my time, worship her. My hands just want to touch her everywhere at once. I’m on sensory overload. I’m literally like a fucking sixteen year old right now. I may fucking come before I even touch her.

  Okay. I need to calm down. I close my eyes for a second—grandmas, baseball, baby rabbits. Alright, I should be okay. My hands start to move over her. I run them down her body, her breasts are fucking perfect. I take them in my hands and squeeze, rolling her nipples between my fingers. I’m moving my mouth from her lips down to meet my hands on her breast. Her hard nipples roll through my lips as I suck and bite them. I flick them with my tongue, causing her to gasp slightly. I pull up onto my knees as she wraps her legs around my waist. I want more than anything to make this last but I can’t, I have to be inside her.

  “Finley, I want to take my time and lick every inch of your body, but I have been without you for too many years. The last time we were together I only had you that one night. I need to fuck you, now. I need to feel you wrapped around my cock.”

  She looks at me with hooded eyes,

  “Fuck me Noah, I want to feel you fill me up and fuck me hard.”

  That’s all I need, I push inside her. She lets out a low cry as she closes her eyes. I move my mouth to hers, devouring her while I move in and out of her tight pussy. She feels so good. Her hands move up and down my back, wrapping in my hair. Her feet dig into my ass as she starts to come undone. I can feel her tightening around me, I start to move faster and push harder. I release into her as I call out her name. We both finish at the same time, drawing out our orgasms by moving slowly and working out the last little bit. I move my hands down her and kiss her breasts. Kissing back across her collarbone and up to her mouth. She tastes amazing. I pull out of her moving off the bed.

  I pick her up and carry her to the bathroom. I set her down in the shower, turning it on and stepping in. I take the loofah and soap it up, I take my time washing every inch of her, running my hands all over her glorious body. I kiss up her neck with my hands full of her tits. I caress them and pinch her nipples. I move one hand down between her legs, pushing them apart so I can have access to her. I rub her clit in circles, flicking it until she calls out with another orgasm. I push her forward spreading her wider and push into her from behind. With both my hands holding on to her ass, I thrust harder and harder, pulling her back into me. She places her hands against the tiled wall, pushing back into me. It’s not long and I am filling her with my release again. I pump into her as I call out her name. I feel her clench around me as her legs shake and her body tenses. I reach around her, stroking her hot pussy until she comes down from her orgasm. I pull her to my body and turn her around to face me so I can press my lips to hers. I can’t get enough of her. I could kiss her forever. But right now the water is getting cold. I rinse us both off, then wrap her in a large towel and get one for me. Naked, we lay down on her bed and pass out. I swear, that was the best night of sleep I have had in a long time. Well, since the last time I slept next to her.

  13

  Finley

  Yesterday was such a good day. I realized spending that time with Noah what I had been missing with Scott. I had thought we had a great relationship, but it wasn’t. At times we had fun, the sex was great, and I even liked hanging out with him, but I always thought, in the back of my mind, something was missing. Now, being with Noah, I know what it was. I was always second guessing Scott and our relationship. I felt that because I wasn’t experienced in being a couple, the things he did were something I could deal with. Our entire time together felt forced. Sure, he turned me on, but I think it was just that, great sex. Scott was hot, a gorgeous guy, so of course I was turned on. It was carnal. It clouded the rational part of me. But with Noah, the sex is more than amazing. He sets me on fire. There is a connection beyond just fucking. He gets me, and I get him. There is never a doubt in mind about anything when I am with him. I never question myself or him. And that’s it. I don’t have my two shoulder people fighting, they agree over Noah. We just slept together last night, and I knew without a doubt how I felt before I invited him in. So, I know this desire comes from somewhere different. I actually enjoy his company, and him as a person. There isn’t any awkward silence, no wondering why I’m here with him. Just contentment with him.

  When Friday comes, I am so excited to find out what he has planned for us. I can’t believe this week has gone by so fast. We have eaten so much good food. We have drank, gotten so drunk, which I rarely do, until recently. We danced and laughed. It has been great spending time with him.

  Noah comes to my room around 7 to get me and we head downstairs. We start heading to the pool area which is odd because I thought we would be going out. When we get to the pool there is a rope and sign saying it closed for a priva
te event. I look at him worried we are crashing someone’s party.

  “It’s fine, we are the private event.” He has a devious smile on his face.

  I just smile at him. But I’m very curious. We get out next to the pool and there is a cabana lit up with candles and a table with two chairs is set up with flowers everywhere. The ground, the table, and the entire cabana is covered with peonies. They are my favorite, and they are everywhere. From light pink to bright pink, they cover the table, the sides of the cabana, the ground is covered with vases full. It’s amazing. I can feel my eyes fill with tears. No one has ever done anything like this.

  I turn to Noah,

  “How did you know?”

  “I had a little help.”

  There are plates with silver covers and a bottle of wine on the table. We sit down and he lifts the cover off my plate and there is boiled shrimp, broiled potatoes and blanched green beans. There is a basket of bread and salads. It’s beautiful. I’m just so overwhelmed.

  “Why did you do this? This is too much.”

  “Why wouldn’t I do this?”

  “I don’t know, it’s just so much,” I say, getting choked up as he just smiles.

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  “It’s not enough. If you ask me, nothing is ever enough for you. If it were up to me, I would do this every day for you. Don’t you see Fin, you deserve the world. I want to give it to you, and more.”

  I know that I have tears running down my face. Partially because of everything he is saying, and also, I have to admit, I’m a little terrified. The one relationship I tried, crashed to the ground in a burning inferno. It wasn’t just a disaster, it was a category 5, call in FEMA, national guard, the reserves, Blackhawk down, major fuckup. So yeah, I am a little scared that I am not meant for this in my life.

  We stay out in the cabana drinking wine and eating desserts well past midnight. We are laid out on the lounge chairs laughing and goofing off when I get a text message. It’s Stacey, she has been MIA since yesterday, not like call the cops file a missing person’s report missing. She met a guy, I think he is a model or something, but he was crazy hot, not much between the ears, if you know what I mean, but he served the purpose she was looking for. She left with him yesterday when we were at the beach and we haven’t seen her since. I heard her come in last night at some point, but I didn’t see her all day today. Then, tonight, I got a pervy text message with an eggplant and a tongue and some other not appropriate things. I couldn’t stop laughing when I saw them. It’s so much like her. So, Noah and I danced under the stars and drank some more wine.

  “Hey, you wanna go skinny dipping?” I say as I raise my eyebrows?

  “Yeah? Now?” his smile spreads wide across his face.

  “Yes. Let’s do it.” We step out of the cabana and since we obviously have the pool to ourselves for our private party, no one is going to interrupt us. I let my dress drop the ground. Noah removes his shirt, slowly dropping it from his shoulders. I just stand and stare at him. He kicks his shoes off as he unbuttons his pants, they fall to the floor. We stand there, both in just underwear. I have my arms crossed over my breast so he can’t see, though I don’t know why because he has seen every inch of me. But for some reason, out here in the open, I’m suddenly very self-conscious. He stands nonchalantly with his hands on his hips in a pair of black boxer briefs. His bulge is very evident now that he is down to his underwear. His chest is glorious and shines under the moonlight, he clearly works out. Also, he has a beautiful golden tan. We just stare at each other, suddenly sober. I pull my bottom lip between my teeth, it’s all I can do to keep from drooling or attacking him. He lets a small laugh out then turns and dives into the pool. I start laughing and jump in after him. We swim around a little and are goofing off when he comes up in front of me all of a sudden. I come up short and stop right in front of his face. Being this close to him, takes my breath away. He is staring right through me. He reaches up and pushes a loose strand of hair behind my ear while his other arm reaches around my body. It’s almost instinctual for me to wrap my legs around his waist, like they were meant to be there. He leans in slowly and softly presses his lips to mine. I move my hands to reach behind his head and loosely run my fingers through his hair. He runs his tongue over my bottom lip and sucks it into his mouth. And that’s it, that does it. I grab onto him, grinding my hips into him and kissing harder. My body is on fire and I feel like I can’t get close enough. I kiss him deeper and no matter how hard he kisses back, exploring my mouth with his tongue, it’s not enough. I need more of him. I move his hands around to my breasts so I can claw at him and feel for him. He takes advantage of the position and grips my breasts rolling my nipples, I feel the sensation in my pussy. I pull his hair and move my hands down his body grabbing his ass and pulling it into me. He grinds into me, kissing down the column of my neck, biting and nipping and licking all the way. He has moved us over to the steps of the pool and set me down on them. He pushes me back to look at me, running his hand down through between my breast, down my stomach.

  “You are absolutely stunning, perfect, you’re perfect.”

  My eyes are glazed over from the lust I feel. And I can’t take it, I need him right now, I reach up and pull him down and kiss him with more desire and want than I have felt ever. He hooks one arm around my waist and runs the other one up to my breast, he holds it in his hand softly, then he starts kneading it. He softly circles my nipple with his finger, then pinches it. He works his way down kissing from my jaw, to my ear, down my neck to my collarbone, now to my breast. He pushes it up into his mouth, taking my nipple in his mouth and sucking and biting. He moves to the other breast and does the same thing.

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  “Oh God, Noah,” I moan softly while I tilt my head back looking up at the midnight sky.

  He continues his path down, he lifts me, so my bottom half is out of the water, and I’m resting on my elbows. He has my ass in his hands and my legs wrapped around his neck on his shoulders. He slowly kisses the inside of my right thigh causing me to moan more which makes him smile. I can feel his smile on my thigh when he moves to my left thigh and kisses there then moves up my thigh to my hot throbbing center. I can feel my want and need pulsing through me as he slowly slides one finger into my center. When he does, I let out a soft cry. It feels so good, he leans down and licks my clit. It is just one soft gentle lick. He is teasing me now, and I’m not a fan. I wrap my legs tighter to encourage him to get a move on. He chuckles and pulls his finger out and licks from my ass to my clit in one long slow lick. It feels so amazing, he gets to my clit and circles it with his tongue. He slides his finger in again and follows with another. Pushing them forward and moving them in and out very vigorously.

  “Do you like that? Does that feel good?” he says while looking up at me.

  “Fuck Noah, yes, fuck me with your fingers hard. Don’t stop.”

  He continues and sucks my clit hard while moving his tongue around it. It doesn’t take long like that to make me come undone. I feel it building in my core and my legs start to tighten and I can feel my pussy tighten on his fingers and I let go and call out his name as I come around him. He gives me a few more slow rubs as I come down, then pulls me up on top of him and slowly works his hard cock inside me. He feels so good. It’s so hard but so silky smooth. His hands are like magic and they are all over me. Working my breasts, and then in my hair pulling my face to his and he is kissing me hard and deep. I can taste me on his mouth. I pull back and smile, then I lean back in and lick all around his mouth. He smiles at me while he gives me a low growl. The sensations are everywhere, and I feel like I can’t get enough. He starts fucking me harder and faster, moving me to the side of the pool and holding on the side. I feel like I can’t get close enough, I can’t get touched enough and he can’t be on me enough. I can’t even explain the feelings I am having right now. It’s too much sensation and not enough. Before I know it, I am coming again, I have his hair in my hands and I’m pulling it as I call out
while I grind my hips into his as hard as I can. I need to feel him as far inside me as he can get. I pull back and push up into him again, only harder. He is right behind me with a few hard pumps and he holds me tight to him. He pulls back to look at me, I smile up at him. I have gone almost completely limp from my orgasm. The emotions I have running rampant are all warring with each other. I take a deep breath as a single tear rolls down my cheek. He leans up and wipes it away. He moves us back to the steps and sits with me on his lap. Then he leans in and kisses me softly. We sit there on the step of the pool for a minute just holding each other. He holds both sides of my face and kisses me gently. He then lifts me with him and carries me out of the pool with him. We hand each other our clothes and get dressed. We slowly make our way to my room. Wet and sloshing through the hallway and elevator, laughing and carrying on. It was a good night.

  He walks me to my door and stops, “I had a really good time tonight.”

  I look up at him and smile,

  “Thank you, me too. Do you want to come in? I mean you don’t have to but if you want to you can.”

  “Really? You really want me to?” He beams, like honestly beams at me.

  “Yes, of course. That is, if you want.” I have no idea what I’m doing right now. I guess I feel like I need to have as much of him as I can before we leave. I don’t know when I will see this man again. All of the sudden, I feel something inside me, it’s like my heart hurts. Just like that, at the thought of not seeing him, I’m hurting. How did that happen so fast? This man that I have basically known for years, walked back into my life, and stole my heart in days. I never felt this way with Scott, never. That’s how I know this is different. That is how I know he is the void, he is the reason and the solution. He has always been the one.