Chasing Soma

by Amy Robyn

  Chapter 6.

  I was in a state of shock for the first half an hour after he left last night. As much as I would like to fight him and tell him he is wrong, I can’t. He is right. He lost a lot of time with our daughter. Both of us have made mistakes. I never should have believed that he would sleep with anyone else and he should have stayed and fought for me. Though it sounds like he could have gotten in to a lot of trouble with the navy if he had.

  If I am honest with myself, I know that all of this lay more on my plate. He had shown me so much love and how do I reward him? I accuse him of something I know in my heart he would never have done. I know this in my heart but my mind is still angry. I need to put that anger where it belongs, on my shoulders. I need to carry that burden now. Not him.

  So what did I do after that thirty minutes of confusion? I got up and started packing. I packed until my body was swaying with exhaustion and still I worked some more. Was I punishing myself? Possibly. I just know that I fell into oblivion on the couch around three in the morning. I woke up bright and early with a very exuberant little girl. I fed her breakfast and we started packing her room until we heard the knock on the door.

  I open the door to the man who never left my mind since the beginning of my sophomore year in high school. The man I will always love. He smiles at me and drops a kiss to my lips that only starts a yearning for more.

  “Daddy.” Leah shouts as she pushes her way between us. He lifts her up with a chuckle.

  “This girl needs kisses too, huh?” He kisses her cheeks until she is giggling.

  “Love you daddy.” She says and he has to clear his throat several times before he answers with a sheen of moisture in his eyes.

  “I love you, baby girl.” He tells her with so much emotion that I let the tears spill down my cheeks. These two are so beautiful together. I wish so many things could have been different so they could have always been together. I shake my head. No more thinking about the past, it’s time for the future.

  “You girls ready?” He asks looking at me. He looks worried like he isn’t sure if I would be upset with his behavior. What he doesn’t understand is that I get why he did it. I would want the same thing if our roles were reversed.

  “Yes, we still have some packing to do, though not much.” I tell him and starts to say something and stops. He pulls me to him holds me and his daughter against him. He needs this moment. Hell, so do I. I have made the leap and I won’t be turning back. I am giving this another chance. I need to know or I will always wonder.

  “You know we probably wouldn’t move in right away if you’re buying a house. It takes time to close.” I tell him. I had been saying that in my head even while I was packing the house.

  “We’ll see about that.” I roll my eyes. Thankfully he can’t see me with my head tucked against his chest. The man is too used to getting his way. I move away from him and grab my purse and the small backpack I packed for Leah. She gets bored far too easy and I am sure looking at houses is going to be one of those things that will bore her. I packed several coloring books and crayons. I also packed her tablet and her favorite baby doll. I help her with the straps as we put it on her back.

  We follow Chase to the car and climb inside. He helps Leah into her seat. He has become an old pro at dealing with that tricky seat. It’s a good thing because she still has years of being in it.

  “There are only five houses available in this town right now. I’m not opposed to going to another town but I thought we should see these before we decide.” He tells me as we drive to the first house. He pulls up to one I have seen numerous times, growing up in this area. It is a bit run down and I know that it wouldn’t be my first choice. I look over and see Chase’s nose curl in distaste.

  “I think when the realtor gets here, we should tell him we are definitely not interested in this one. Besides it’s only two bedrooms and we need at least four.” He says with a smile. My jaw drops. What in the hell do we need four bedrooms for? I think Chase is losing his damn mind if he thinks I am having that many children.

  “We are having at least two more kids.” He tells me with a wink before climbing out of the car to meet the realtor who just pulled up.

  “Like hell.” I mumble under my breath. Chase is only gone for a moment and returns with a smile on his face.

  “Do you remember the house we used to go skinny dipping at? The one that we talked about living in?” He asks me. Of course I remember it. It was some of the happiest days of my life. The house is set back away from the road and can’t be seen through the thick trees. Not many know it’s there. It is like a private paradise. It has a large pond behind it with the clearest water and trees hanging over it so that it acts as a privacy fence. The house its self is beautiful but it’s the outside that always drew us to it. We would sit outside of it and talk about what it would be like to live there.

  “It’s available.” He grins as he starts the car again and follows the silver SUV as it pulls back out onto the main road. I am still stunned that he is taking us to look at that house. It’s not like we can afford it. It’s probably worth three times what any other house would cost in this town. I shake my head and decide to let him lead in this. There is no point in arguing about it. Besides, I will enjoy finally getting to see inside the house. That makes me smile.

  We pull up at the house and the first thing I notice is that it hasn’t been mowed or maintained in some time. It is overgrown. It by no means detracts from it’s beauty though the thought of the work it will take cutting it all back is a bit daunting. I look up at the large house. It is a large Victorian house with the pillars setting up the front porch and my breath catches as I see the porch that wraps around the second floor. I wonder what it would be like to watch to sunrise from up there as I drink my morning coffee.

  “It’s a little overgrown but it is still as beautiful as ever.” I say as Chase jumps out of the car and goes to the back to help Leah out of her seat. I get out just as Mr. Telford walks over to us. He is one of the two realtors in town. The other is his wife. He is a nice man. His oldest son went to school with us only he is a few years younger than us.

  “Hi Mr. Telford. How is Tommy doing?” I ask as he shakes my hand. It is a small town. We all know each other. It is one of the things that kept me from moving. I want to raise my child where there are no surprises. I do not like the idea of her meeting strangers.

  “He just finished his freshman year of college and already they have him starting next season.” He beams proudly. Tommy was our star player on the football team. It isn’t surprising that his school has found that he is as talented as we all already knew him to be.

  “That’s great news. You must be proud.” I tell him and he smiles again.

  “Oh I am. His momma and I never miss a game even though we have to travel a couple hours to get there.” They are fortunate that he received a scholarship to a school in the same state. CU is in boulder about two hours east of us. It is a great school. It is where I had planned to go until life got in the way.

  “Give him my best, will you?” I say as Chase and my daughter step up beside us. Mr. Telford nods his head and leads us up the large porch and unlocks the front door. The old door squeaks as it opens and I think well there is another thing needing work, but thankfully only a few drops of oil it should be good as new. I step inside and my jaw drops. It is so much more beautiful than I ever anticipated. It has a large wooden staircase the leads up to the second floor and to each side of it is a doorway.

  Mr. Telford leads us to the entryway on the right and it is a large kitchen. There are no appliances but already I can see what I would choose and it will look absolutely perfect. It is so large that we could have a large table in here with plenty of space left. The china hutch that my mother left me that has been in storage collecting dust will look perfect in here too. I would paint the walls a soft teal color and a darker teal around the base boards.

  Mr. Telford tells us about the plumbing that was
just replaced by the bank that currently owns the house. Apparently when the last owner passed away, he didn’t have any more relatives. The bank has had possession of it ever since. That means it is available to move in immediately. Too bad it is way out of our price range. I look up at Chase who is running his hand across the wood as though seeing if it is still sound.

  Mr. Telford takes us back out and into the entryway on the left hand side of the staircase. It is a large sitting room and I can imagine what couches and coffee tables I would put in here. I need to stop doing that, it gets my hopes up. I can’t seem to help myself. There is a door that opens into the laundry area that is the size of my entire house. I nearly start laughing at the thought.

  He then leads up the stairs and that is where I fall head over hills in love with this house. There are five bedrooms that start out fairly small and continue to get bigger until you get to the master bedroom. It is large and with large windows that look out onto the pond that we used to swim in. The one we thought nobody could see us while we swam naked. My cheeks heat and when Chase notices the view, he starts laughing.

  What really got me to fall in love with the house is the tower. We walk up the spiral staircase into a room that is all windows with bookshelves towering everywhere. It is the most breathtaking library I have ever seen. I can see myself with a desk in the middle of the room and writing about adventures. I would pause in my writing to look out at the lush view of trees. I can see myself happy here.

  I look up at Chase with tears in my eyes. He smiles and runs his finger down my cheek.

  “We’ll take it.” He tells Mr. Telford. I gasp at him as Mr. Telford beams. He just made enough in commission to last him a while.

  “That’s wonderful.” Mr. Telford says and you can practically see the dollar bills in his eyes.

  “I want immediate possession. Can you make that happen?” Mr. Telford pulls out his phone.

  “I will call the bank now and see how quickly we can sit up a meeting to sign the papers. I think they will be agreeable. It is the local bank after all.” In other words they have nothing else going on. Mr. Telford steps out of the room to make his phone call and I hiss at Chase.

  “We can’t afford a house like this.” I spit out as I continue to look at the beauty surrounding me. Living here would be like a dream come true.

  “Of course we can.” He shrugs his shoulder and I glare up at him.

  “Unless you won the lottery while you were gone.” I take Leah from his arms when she starts squirming. I sit her down and she runs over to look out the window.

  “Mommy, it’s a princess castle.” She says as she claps her hands and bounces up and down.

  “Babe, I made good money as a SEAL and I saved every penny. One of the guys on my team is a genius with numbers and predicting the stock market. I invested a lot of my money and it grew beyond anything I could have imagined. I can afford this house and ten more like it if I choose to.” He tells me taking me completely by surprise. I can’t believe that we could be moving into the very house we used to daydream about living in.

  “I want the house that you and I dreamed of living in as we would lay naked by the pond. I want all the things we talked about having together.” He says the last part against my mouth as he pulls me toward him. I open my mouth to him immediately and his tongue thrusts in touching my tongue, creating a frenzy as my breathing explodes from my lungs. I forget where we are and what is going on as I surrender myself to the pleasure of his mouth.

  A throat clears making us jump apart, startled by the older man who smirks at us.

  “The bank says they can have the paperwork ready by this evening. They would like your bank information to see that you are serious though.” He tells Chase.

  “Of course.” He pulls out his wallet and hands Mr. Telford a piece of paper with numbers written all over it.

  “USAA” Mr. Telford asks and Chase nods his head. He steps back out of the room with his phone to his ear. I shake my head. It looks like he is getting his way yet again.

  “Mommy, a bird.” Leah shouts excitedly. We both make our way over to it and watch as it lays a branch down on the nest in is building next to the window.

  “I bet soon it will have eggs in it.” Chase tells Leah and she jumps up and down.

  “So which room do you want as your bedroom.” Chase asks her and she stops and thinks.

  “This one.” She says happily.

  “I was thinking this would be a good library and office for mommy to write in.” Chase tells her taking me by surprise. It’s almost as though he can read my mind at times.

  “I show you.” Leah takes his hand and leads him down the stairs. I cringe a bit thinking about the two large staircases in this house. We will have to put up baby gates if we decide to have more children. I only want one more. I can’t imagine having more than that. Chase is off his rocker wanting at least three. Let’s try one more and see how he does. He is getting to know his daughter when she no longer has stinky diapers and night time feedings.

  Leah picks the room next to the master bedroom and is animatedly telling Chase what she wants for her room. She tells him she wants a big girl bed. He eats up every word she says.

  “How about when we leave here, we go to the furniture store and you can pick out what you want in your room.” He tells her and she screeches her excitement. I practically have to cover my ears.

  “You’re going to spoil her absolutely rotten.” I tell him and he smiles unrepentantly.

  “Yes I will and you too.” He tells me as he saunters over to me again with a devious expression. I shake my head at him and shove his shoulder.

  “Don’t even think about it. Mr. Telford has already had an eyeful.” He smirks at me as though he thinks it’s funny. He probably does. Though, if I think about all the times that Mr. Davis caught us lip locked, it seems mild in comparison.

  Mr. Davis was our High school math teacher. He would always walk in on us kissing wherever we were. He made good natured jokes about it and never disciplined us for our behavior. He actually came to me after Chase left town and expressed how disappointed that he was. He thought we would always be together. I cried on his shoulder for a good half an hour.

  “Alright the bank has set up a seven o’clock meeting for us.” Mr. Telford says. You can practically see his eyes dancing in merriment.

  “That’s perfect.” Mr. Telford hands back his information that Chase slides into his back pocket. We all walk back out to the car together. It all seem so surreal to me. It almost feels as though I am dreaming. Chase drives straight from there to the furniture store where we let Leah pick out her furniture. I roll my eyes when I remind them that she has all the furniture she needs already.

  “Mommy I needs the big girl stuff. I not a baby.” She pouts until she sees the twin sized canopy bed with a curtain that goes around it. It looks like something you would see in a fairytale princess room. It has a matching dresser and night stand. We even find a castle that holds toys like a toy box only larger. Chase happily tells the sales man what all we want. He is keeping a list as he follows us around the store.

  Next, we make our way over to the adult furniture where we can find ours, for our bedroom. I fall in love with a king sized four poster bed. We pick out the mattress and box springs we want to go with it. This bed is going to feel as though we are sleeping on a cloud. Of course we get all the matching accessories like the dresser and bedside tables. I am cringing at the bill we have to be racking up.

  I fall in love with a dining room table right away. We hadn’t even made it fully into the section before my eyes were on it. I couldn’t even look at the others. Chase laughs and tells the salesman to add it to the list with all the chairs that go with it. We then pick out curtains and beddings stuff. I am worn out and poor little Leah is dragging as we make our may to the front of the store. We are almost to the door when I see the desk of my dreams. I turn to Chase and he is looking at it too.

  “That will look p
erfect in your library office.” He tells me and I grin and nod. We have similar tastes and I can’t be happier about it. He runs over and tells the salesman who is happy to oblige. We have it setup to be delivered tomorrow morning which means we will have an early day tomorrow. It’s good that the men will be helping us put everything together for us.

  Leah falls asleep in the car on the way back to the house. Chase carries her inside and lays her down on her bed as I make us lunch. I make us a couple of club sandwiches and chips and sit them on the table. When Leah wakes up, I will make her a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Chase and I sit down and eat. His eyes stay on me the entire time. I wonder why until I see the heat in them. Oh.

  Chapter 7.

  She is flushed from all that we have done today but I have never seen a more beautiful woman. It’s not just her looks either, it is the entire package. It always has been. I knew Soma on a different level than most do at a very young age. It is almost like we were made for each other. Neither complete without the other. I need her in such a visceral intensity that makes my cock hardens painfully in my pants and my heart starts racing with only a look.

  I stand so abruptly the chair falls with a clatter to the floor behind me. I make my way around the table and pull her up. She wraps her legs around me as I lift her. I carry her to the bedroom that I haven’t been inside of yet. I open the door and see the plain room that only seems to carry the necessities. I wonder why she didn’t put her touch in this room. I see it throughout the house but not in here. I carry her to the bed and drop her down in the center.

  She giggles as she bounces until I add my weight on top of her, then it turns to a moan. I rub my hardness against the apex of her thighs making her moan even more. It is a double edged sword, it turns her on feeling me against her little clit but it is bringing me closer to cumming and I am not ready to cum yet. I haven’t been with her in so long and I know that I will not last long. I need to make sure she gets off before I do. I have never liked cumming without her. I have heard of greedy bastards that get off and get out. That is never going to be me. I want to feel her satisfaction.