Manage Me (Toven's Circus #1)

by Marlowe Fox

  “What? We would never?” She deadpans with a mischievous smirk, it’s no wonder Nell thinks I’m trouble, it’s clearly hereditary.

  “Alright Kid, we’ll get out of your hair. Are you still staying at the house tonight?” asks Dad.

  Fuck, I forgot I was going to stay with them because I miss them and don’t get to see them nearly as much as I want. I change up my plans to spend my last night in Portland with them instead of with Nell. So I nod my head and give them all hugs goodbye. Letting them know I’ll be over there later.

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  I shower quickly, I’d really like to climb into Nell again before passing out but I need to find her first. I wander around backstage, figuring she’s monitoring breakdown. I find her on the stage, fitting Ryker’s guitars into their cases. She’s bent over low with her ass in the air and my cock jumps in my sweatpants. Her two round globes looks amazing in her black skinny jeans, her loose white shirt slides up, so I can just make out a tattooed red tail curling just above her ass crack. I take a second to appreciate the sight before walking up right behind her, resting my hardening cock against her. I grab hold of her hips to keep her in place when she jumps, and stands up.

  “Ryker, I told you already that we are not fucking again!” she says.

  With a growl, I grab her arm, jerking her around to face me. My blood instantly on fire that she would let another guy touch her.

  “What the fuck did you just say?” With my jaw clenched I seethe, as I realize she is trying hard not to laugh. Glaring down at her, I give her a good shake, “Don’t say that shit. You are mine!” This causes her to let out an adorable snort of disbelief.

  “You keep telling yourself that Rockstar. No one owns me, especially someone that is in a relationship with someone else, and definitely not one that thinks I am pathetic in bed.” Her eyes are now frosty, her smile gone.

  “What the fuck are you talking about?” I ask truly confused. “First, you are un-fucking-believable in bed, or should I say, on my bike? And second, I am not in a relationship, who told you that?”

  “Emily Snow told me, she said you told her we fucked and then laughed about it.” She bites glaring up at me.

  “Emily is fucking insane, I want you to stay away from her. We have never been, or will be, in a relationship together. There was one weekend and honestly, that was too long. There is nothing between her and me. And Nell,” I grab her face between my hands so she has to look at me. “I would never laugh at the way you fuck, because that was the best fucking I have ever received. I can’t wait to have you again.” Her eyes have softened and I lean in for a kiss. I brush my tongue along her lips to get her to open for me, but she stubbornly stays closed. I lightly bite her lip making her gasp, slipping my tongue past her lips as her tongue sweeps mine, my taste buds go wild at her sweet flavor. I lightly bite her plump bottom lip, before sucking it gently. Our breathing starts to increase, as we devour each other’s mouths.

  “Whoa, wait, Jaden stop!” Nell jerks away taking several steps back. “We can’t do this, Jaden. I haven’t known you long enough to be dealing with this shit and there is the tour. I won’t have that minuscule cunt fuck up my career over some rock star that’s going to be fucking some groupie in a week when he is done with me.”

  “I know we haven’t known each other long but Nell, you are different…” I really do feel like she is different but how do I explain that when we have hardly known each other a week? From the first second I saw her it was like a punch in the chest and I didn’t even know her name. But from what I have learned so far, she not the pampered princess that I was expecting. She is smart and driven. She is sexy as hell, strong, and smart. And I want her. I want her with a deeper need than I have ever wanted anyone or anything. I need to change her mind about who I really am. Sure I like to fuck around but I’ve never said that was the only thing I want. I want what my parents and brother have, I just haven’t found the woman that could be that, until Nell. Grabbing her hand in mine, I drag her behind me trying to find someplace more private. I head through a pair of doors, discovering the Portland Trail Blazers locker room. I drop her hand and pace away from her, then back, then away, then back again to just stare into her eyes, while I say what I need to.

  “Look, I know you have some ill-conceived ideas about me, about what I want, or what I do. I’m a 28 year old rock star. Woman throw themselves at me and yeah, I splurge but that doesn’t mean that I don’t ever want a committed relationship. That I don’t eventually want marriage or kids. It simply means I am a 28 year old fucking rock star with a cock, that hasn’t found the right woman to make me only want her. But I like you, I like you a fucking lot, and for much more than just sex. I like how smart and caring you are. I like that you work hard for what you want and I can’t help this pull I feel for you. I’m not trying to fuck up your career, nor am I asking you to marry me. I am asking you to drop your preconceived notions about who I am and get to know me, for me.” Nell stands there, with wide eyes, and a slack jaw. Her mouth giving me dirty thoughts of what I’d rather be doing right now.

  “You’re right.” She finally says surprising me.

  “About which part?”

  “I do have preconceived ideas about the person that you are and so far those ideas don’t add up to the person that I see before me. I hate when people judge me for who I am related to before getting to really know me. I have done that to you and I am sorry.” She steps towards me placing her palms on my chest, her eyes pleading for my forgiveness.

  “I like being right.” I grab her hips tugging her into me. Nell gives me a playful glare before she leans forward and nips at my bottom lip, teasing a groan from deep in my chest.

  “Whatever happens, the band and this tour come first. If we fail miserably we can make it through the tour and never talk again. If you get bored or realize I am not the woman you are looking for, just be honest and tell me you are done before you jump in bed with some groupie slut.”

  “Deal, but the same goes for you, too.” I lean forward kissing her forehead, the bridge of her nose, then the tip, so she lets out a giggle.

  “I’ve never had an appetite for groupie sluts but okay, I promise.” She says with a grin. I grab her ass, lifting her up so her legs around my waist, causing her to gasp when I grind my hardness into her center. I thrust my hands into her hair, yanking her head back, so I can taste the skin of her neck. Her sweet scent invades my head as I bite into her flesh, causing her hips to buck forward.

  Knowing she likes things a little rough works for me because I like to play a little rough. She drags her nails firmly along my chest, making goose bumps prickle along my skin, and a hard shudder reverberates through me.

  Chapter 20

  Nell

  "Hmm, guess you like that," I whisper along his neck, finding my way to his jaw and to his ear, gripping it in my teeth before massaging it with my tongue. With a growl he swings us around till I am up against a wall, where he presses into my hot center. The wall behind me moves unexpectedly and he stumbles forward through the set of doors. The air is suddenly heavy with the smell of chlorine. We pause our attack of one another to take in our new surroundings. We apparently have stumbled across the hot tub room.

  “Maybe one of these times we will make it into a bed but this isn’t going to be one of them.” Jaden says laughing before setting me down so he can shuck off all of his clothes. Stripped bare, I admire the view of his amazing ass as it disappears into the dark water. “Are you coming?”

  Pulling my shirt over my head, I chuckle out, “Baby, you’re good but you’re not that good.”

  A mischievous grin spreads across his face, “Is that a challenge, Beauty?”

  I bite my lip matching his grin, “And if it is?” I am beyond turned on and curious about what he will do from the other side of the room.

  “Fucking challenge accepted. Pun intended.” Instead of moving towards me, Jaden steps back onto the seat, and sits
on the backside of the hot tubs edge. The only light in the room is from the underwater tub lights, highlighting him from below. His cock twitches under my intense gaze. He palms his length, starting at the base and sliding his wet hand around to the tip, slowly twisting his fist around the crown. My panties are long past flooded but I now feel a tickle brush my thigh. He proceeds to please himself, letting off deeps growls while maintaining constant eye contact with me, I stand there gaping at him before remembering his challenge.

  Lowering, I pull off my Chucks and socks. With the shoes gone I can focus on a sexier show. I slide my hands seductively up my sides to my breasts, rubbing along the outsides then to the inside valley, across to my nipples. Tweaking and pinching them.

  “Are you pretending those are my hands on you, Beauty?” Jaden asks, his echoing voice surrounding me,

  I shake my head no and he frowns, “My hands are no match for yours. Yours are big and strong. They are rough against my soft skin. I love your big hands on me.” I say.

  “Do you like when my mouth is on you? Breathing you in, sucking, nibbling, biting, and devouring every inch of you?” He asks as I dip my thumbs under the band of my jeans, pushing them over my swaying hips, and down my legs. I walk towards him in just my light blue and black laced bra and panties. Reaching the edge of the hot tub, I turn my back to Jaden, taking a moment to grin because he’s stopped the movement on his cock, completely absorbed in me. I reach back, releasing the hook of my bra, slip the straps off my shoulders, and turning to look over my shoulder at him. Jaden’s eyes hungrily inspect every inch of my backside. And before my confidence starts to waver, I hook my thumbs into the waistband of my panties, slowly slipping them down, swishing my hips back and forth before bending forward to slide them down my legs. I hear a fierce groan but he stays seated continuing to watch me.

  Wanting to see how far I can push him, I step my feet farther apart, looking at him while upside-down, my soaked pussy right in his eye line. Doing my best porn star impression, I put my middle finger in my mouth, closing my eyes, letting out a soft groan, and place it against my pulsing clit. Rubbing my finger in a tight circle before dipping it into my liquid center.

  Jaden hisses out a frustrated breath, one hand gripping the edge of the tub and his forgotten fist renewing itself with vigor. He is breathing heavily, his jaw clinched, while he bites his lip hard. Standing up, I turn to face him and step into the hot tub, licking my juices off my finger.

  “You’re fucking incredible, Nell. I could blow all over already,” He breathes heavily. I’m more turned on than I ever have been in my life but I take a moment to appreciate my slight victory, however, a slight victory isn’t good enough, I have always been competitive. With a smirk, I sit on the edge of the tub, lifting my right leg, to rest my foot on the tile edge. I start moving my hand to my quivering lips but a splash snares me out of the moment, as Jaden hops into the hot tub, making his way forward and grabbing my twitching hand.

  “Enough!” he growls. “You fucking win.” He attacks my lips, one hand grasping my hip and the other plunging a long finger into my drenched opening, setting a brutal pace that I happily arch into. His mouth is punishing mine with bites followed by soothing suction but he quickly pulls away so he can watch the show below.

  “Fuck Beauty, you have me so fucking turned on I can’t focus on what I want to do to you first.” He laughs at himself while he adds two fingers and moan out a response watching his every move.

  “Look at that gorgeous hungry pussy swallowing my fingers.” He slowly pulls his fingers out, admiring how they glisten in the low light. “Stunning.” He says before popping them in his mouth sucking them clean and moaning. “Mmm, better than ice cream.”

  “Can I taste?” I ask.

  “Fuck me Jesus, that mouth.” He says before kissing me deep. When he pulls back with a huge grin, he dips his fingers back through my juices bringing it up for me to taste. I wrap my lips around his fingers, sucking softly. My flavor isn’t as unpleasant as I expected. It’s tangy but sweet and I greedily suck it off him.

  “That’s the hottest fucking thing I have ever seen. Fuck Beauty, I want to be buried so deep in this wet cunt but I’m going to make us wait. Make you wait until you’re mad for my cock.” He says pulling his fingers from my mouth and moving his big body down until he’s face to face with my cunt.

  “Hello my beautiful pussy, I’m Jaden and I’m about to devour you until you cum all over my face” He says and my patience is gone, I grab the back of his head and pull him into my wet center. He lets out a chuckle but receives the message and gets to work. Licking, sucking, and nibbling his way around, never staying in one spot too long for me to really get wound up. He is doing exactly what he said he was going to do, driving me mad for his cock.

  My climax builds and wanes so many frustrating times I want to get violent with him but instead I beg,

  “Baby, I’m so close! Please Jaden, please fuck me!” But his mouth stops and he just smiles up at me. I let out a growl of my own. “Are you going to fuck me or what?” Yeah, I sound bitchy but this game has literally rubbed my patience to a breaking point.

  “I love it when you beg.” He says sinking his teeth into the flesh of my thigh, sending a quiver racing through me. Letting out a fierce growl I push him back a step, grab his stiff dick, and dive onto it like a starved animal. I take him deep into my throat, making his breath escape in a whoosh, like I just knocked the wind out of him. With one hand I grab his shaft and the other his hip, controlling the rhythm, as I twist my mouth around and suck on the smooth head of his long cock. I keep eye contact with him the whole time; reading surprise at first, then his eyes cross when intense pleasure overwhelms him. Humming low and deep forces more air out of him and his fingers make their way into my hair lightly tugging. He is panting now, getting closer to exploding when his hold on my hair tightens, pulling me back away from his body, then putting his face right into mine, forcing me to look at him. He looks pissed, with his jaw clinched, his eyes hard.

  “My turn,” pulling a hand from my hair he pushes me to my back. He grabs my bent legs at the hips and pulls my ass to the edge of the tub. I grab his other hand sinking my teeth onto his palm, nipping his fingers before suckling a couple in my hot mouth. He stands watching me then crouches on the bench lowering his head between my legs. He bites my inner thigh, hard enough that it will for sure leave a mark. My pussy tightens and I gasp. His tongue brushes my tightest hole, licking a slow path across my cunt hole, and swirling around my clit. I bite down on the finger in my mouth, as my climax starts to build once again.

  When he pulls back for what now feels like the hundredth time, I want to punch him in his pretty face. But before I can get violent he fills me with his incredible cock, and I’m screaming out his name. Pile driving into me like a machine and after all that teasing, I am thrown over the edge of my climax almost immediately. My eye sight tunnels and all I can see is him, as he fiercely lets out a growl and jerking off the edge into his own climax.

  We gasp for breath together, our skin slick with our mixed sweat, and our united parts twitching in the aftermath of our pleasure.

  “I’ll move us into the water as soon as I can feel my legs again.” Jaden murmurs in my neck causing me to giggle. He lets out a long groan.

  “Are you okay?” I ask concerned.

  “Just don’t giggle. It causes your tight pussy to vibrate and I need a minute before you start getting me hard again.” I let out another giggle making him bite his full bottom lip as he squeezes his eyes closed. I grab his chin, pulling his lip from his teeth, before sucking it into my own.

  “Hey, this is my lip now, so take better care of it.” I can feel him getting hard again and he starts to slowly move his hips again. Jaden’s large hands find my bare ass lifting me up, I wrap my weak arms around his shoulders, and he slowly sinks us into the hot water.

  Chapter 21

  Nell

  When we finally are able to pry our hands and mo
uths off each other, I head back to the bus and Jaden left for his parents’ house. Finn and Ashton also went to their parents and I lost track of Ryker and Gemma at some point while I was helping with the stage breakdown. But Gemma has a flight out early to make the wedding she has to shoot, so I assume she went back to the bus to crash. Ryker is probably banging a groupie somewhere, I’ve heard rumors about him. Apparently Jaden isn’t the only band slut.

  I decide to sleep in Jaden’s big bed tonight. Not that my rack isn’t comfortable but I wanted to wrap him around me. The back bedroom is huge, especially considering that it’s in the back of an RV. It’s decorated in several hues of grey and dark blue. The headboard rests against the opaque glass of the large tile shower. The left wall is lined with a vanity table with mirror sitting above a large dresser. I snuggle into the big bed, covered in dark blue from the sheets to the comforter.

  I curl up into the sheets, surrounding myself with his spicy scent. Despite all that has happened, despite the caution I know I need to take, Jaden makes me feel enormously happy and special and because I am alone, I allow a big stupid smile to spread across my face. Turning into the pillow, I let out a happy scream, and squirm around in the bed in excitement.