Letting Go

by Morningstar Ashley

  Moving back up to his neck Kelley sucked, tasted as he reached down with one hand greedily rubbing Alex’s dick through his pants. Running his hand up and down giving him the same pressure that Kelley’s throbbing cock was begging for.

  “Oh, god.” Alex groaned with a rough edge to his voice as he arched his neck giving Kelley even more room to explore and mark. He wanted his mark on him. Wanted everyone to see that he was Kelley’s. Fearing that with all the pain locked inside Alex he would never truly be his.

  “Your shirt. Take off your shirt. I need to feel your skin.”

  As soon as Kelley removed his shirt he flattened Alex to the couch again, pressing their chests together once again. Alex had spread his thighs and Kelley slotted himself right there. Their groins meeting and sliding together. And holy fucking hell did that feel good. The pressure of Alex’s steel length against his rock-hard cock sending relief and pleasure throughout his body.

  Alex scratched his nails down his back making him growl. He had his legs bracketing Kelley’s body holding him in place. Like he would be so fucking stupid as to move.

  He felt Alex’s heart jackhammering through his chest. Their breaths panting out between kisses and moans.

  What had started out slow had built and built until Kelley wanted to say fuck it and rip Alex’s clothes off to get at every inch of his skin. To have their bodies, slippery from sweat, sliding together.

  And just like that, Kelley knew exactly what he was going to do. Oh, Jesus, the thought alone sending lust hurtling to his aching balls, making him want to shoot.

  He was going to drive Alex to the brink over and over. Making him forget anything and everything except the need that would be coursing through his body. The need Kelley put there. Have Alex begging and pleading Kelley to let him come.

  Within minutes they lay back on the couch completely naked, kneeling between Alex’s thighs once again. All of his gorgeous fucking skin for Kelley to touch. His cock on full display, the crown purple and leaking pre-come onto his stomach. Kelley’s mouth watered with the thought of sliding it between his lips.

  But not yet.

  Unable to stop himself, he slipped his hands, fingers spread wide, to his ankles, over his thighs, across his chest. Gliding with the lightest touch around Alex’s erect nipples, back down his arms. Over and over he did that, needing to get his fill of that amazing man. No one should have that effect on another person. He sat there with a naked Alex in front of him in awe of every lean muscle that pushed up to meet his hands, every scar his traced.

  “Kelley,” Alex bit out as his body trembled under Kelley’s gentle touches.

  “Yeah, baby. You need something?”

  “Fuck. Don’t be an ass. You know want I want.”

  Kelley sank back down on top of him. Licking a path up his collarbone to his throat and then their mouths met stifling any more words that Alex was going to say. Their cocks aligned perfectly, and Kelley began to thrust his cock against Alex’s as their kisses turned desperate and needy.

  Kelley pulled away, and before Alex could utter a protest, he swallowed Alex’s cock to the back of his throat. Letting his saliva pool in his mouth, needing all the wetness he could get for the slide of their cocks. With every groan that Alex had let out Kelley’s cock would twitch and throb tightening to epic proportions.

  Each time he could feel Alex getting close Kelley would back off. Time and time again bringing him to the brink before pulling his mouth and hand away. Alex would whimper and wiggle, unable to lie still. He was so out of it that his words were reduced to grunts and groans.

  When Kelley was satisfied that he’d sufficiently teased Alex, he pulled off his cock with a pop. Using the spit that was now covering his hand, he coated his own cock with it before lying on top of Alex, lining their cocks up.

  His body fitting tightly to Alex’s. Wrapping one arm around Alex’s shoulders, holding as close to him as he could, both needing the closeness the position gave them. Kelley began thrusting his cock against Alex’s.

  “I’ve got you, baby. Just feel.”

  Whispered profanities had started to spill from Alex’s mouth. Kelley’s whole body was so overwhelmed by the slide and friction of their cocks he felt like he could’ve blown his load at any moment, hoping that Alex was feeling even a sliver of what he was.

  Alex had begun to counter thrust, writhing his tight body under Kelley. His head was tipped back, the muscles of his neck corded and straining.

  “That’s it, baby. Let go.”

  Kelley sucked Alex’s tongue into his mouth, kisses turning desperate and hungry once again. He reached down with his free hand grasping both their cocks together in a tight hold, jacking them off as one.

  “Kelley! Oh fuck,” Alex rasped out. “I’m gonna -”

  “Yes, me too. Let me see you come,” he whispered against Alex’s ear.

  No sooner had the words left Kelley’s mouth Alex’s whole body tensed and shuddered as he cried out. Kelley could feel his cock swell in his hand right before his come saturated the small space between them.

  That’s all it had taken to have Kelley’s balls let loose, following closely behind Alex, the air pushed out of his lungs and their seed mixing together on their stomach and thighs.

  Kelley lying heavily on top of Alex, their breaths mingling as they pant into each other’s mouths. When his breathing was finally under control, he got up saying, “Don’t move. I’ll be right back,” as he’d run to the downstairs bathroom to go grab a towel to clean them up.

  Once the cleanup thing had been done, he dropped the towel to the floor and crawled over a sprawled out Alex on the couch.

  “Roll to your left side, baby,” Kelley whispered.

  They lay on their sides, chest to chest, his arms once again full of relaxed and sated Alex. He pulled the blanket from the back of the couch, covering them up to ward off any chill in the air. Kelley was relieved. Glad that his Alex was finally relaxing, free of tension that their argument had caused, but he knew it wouldn’t last.

  Casting aside his worry, he carded his fingers through Alex’s soft straight hair. He had let it grow out some since Kelley had been complaining he wanted to be able to grab it or run his fingers through it.

  A second later there was a whispered, “Thank you.,” from Alex. Kelley hadn’t needed to ask what he meant. He knew. Kelley helped him forget. Knowing he could help had his chest swell with pride but knowing the battle was just beginning sent fear down his spine.

  Kelley sat down slowly in the chair at his desk, loosening the tie on the suit he had worn just for the occasion. It was finally over. After months of work, he’d just got done giving the presentation for the expansion of the intern program. The proposal hadn’t been easy, not when Jason had fought so hard against it.

  Waiting was the worst part though. Kelley was a patient man but when it came to the things he wanted as badly as he wanted that expansion his patience was hard won.

  Bret said that when they came to a decision that he would be the one to deliver it. Typically, they would immediately call him back to the conference room to announce the decision. But that time Bret was allowing them a short discussion after Kelley left, then also taking the proposal to the managers of their departments so that they could go over it a bit more.

  No matter how the decision went, some day later in the week, he would treat his team to lunch as a thank you for all their hard work.

  Since the meeting had been first thing that morning, Kelley went on about his day checking emails, calling Alex to catch him up, and the rest of his day to day.

  Time dragged on making three hours feel more like eight when a knock sounded at his door. He yelled, “Come in,” to whoever it was, most likely Delilah, without even looking up from the budget sheets he was going over.

  “Kelley, may I speak with you a moment?” Bret’s voice had jolted him.

  Snapping his head up and then over at the clock only to realize he’d gotten so lost in the numbers
on his spreadsheet that it was now lunch time.

  “Oh, yes, Bret. Absolutely. Please have a seat.” Kelley gestured to the chairs in front of his desk. Moving around the desk to sit with Bret, he took a seat in the other free chair.

  “I’m sorry this has taken so long; some clarifications were needed,” Bret explained.

  “It’s truly no trouble, as you could see when you walked in I was staying busy.”

  “Yes, well, I had no doubts on that. First, I want to tell you that you and your team did an excellent job on the proposal. I was impressed.”

  “Thank you, Bret. It was important to us all so doing it right was paramount.” With each word Bret didn’t say Kelley grew more and more nervous of what was to come.

  “Yes, that came through. As you know without my vote, the total count was nine and mine was to be used at my discretion. In the end, my vote wasn’t needed, but I decided to voice my opinion on the matter after everyone else had cast their votes.”

  Bret paused, and Kelley swore he was doing it to torture him, but he nodded his head letting him know he understood.

  “The final vote was seven of the ten voting…yes. Congratulations, Kelley, your proposal was approved.” Bret smiled.

  “Oh, wow. That’s… I have no words. Thank you!” Inside Kelley had been jumping for joy, but on the outside, he just let his grin come out knowing he’d have the chance to act like an idiot after Bret left his office.

  “Go home, Kelley. Celebrate or just take the time to relax. The rest of your team, as well. You all deserve it. But be ready tomorrow morning to start the setup for the rollout.”

  “I think you just made my whole team’s day, Bret. And we’ll be ready!” He reached over and shook Bret’s hand as they both stood before Bret made his way out of his office.

  Bret stopped at the door hand on the handle and turned to Kelley. “You should know I never doubted your ability once to get this done and approved. You are a valued employee of this firm, Kelley.”

  Stunned by Bret’s words he stood frozen as Bret walked out and closed his door. He’d been told he was valued before, it wasn’t the first time, but it had been years since Bret himself had been the one to say it.

  Once he spread the good news to his small team and that they had the rest of the day off Kelley took off for home, texting Alex on his way out the door.

  Kelley: Heading home early today. Want to come over?

  He still hadn’t heard anything back from him by the time he walked into his house thirty minutes later. Not that it was a big deal since it was something that happened on Alex’s busy days.

  Removing his shoes at the door and grabbing a glass of his favorite white wine he sat on his couch letting out a breath. It was done and approved. Yeah, the hard work was yet to come but at least that hard work was bringing him closer to realizing another dream.

  He couldn’t wait to share his news with Alex.

  Kelley was still a little heartbroken for him after their conversation about his mom’s death the other day. They eventually moved off the couch, and after a shower, they lay tangled together on Kelley’s bed.

  The next morning when they’d woken up Alex acted like the conversation hadn’t even happened. Kelley watched him move around his kitchen, wanting to say something to him but he didn’t know what. Plus, with how Alex was pretending like the whole thing didn’t take place it probably was best to let it go for now.

  He just wasn’t sure for how much longer he could.

  Sadness washed over him. How could someone hold all that in? How could someone live their life as though none of the pain from the past had ever happened? Kelley couldn’t imagine living like that. What it must do to the mind do repress such great loss and desolation.

  But Alex didn’t just quell any one emotion, he did it to his pain, his love, his happiness. He still managed to get up every day as though nothing occurred to raise and care for his sister. To make sure she never wanted for anything. To make sure she was never in the pain that Alex himself went through.

  And the toll for that was huge.

  Kelley knew he would make sure that he was there for the man he cared deeply for. He may be known for being a mother hen to his friends, but with Alex, it was more. That man had buried himself under Kelley’s skin with his sad eyes, sweet, gentle smile, and the love he had for his sister.

  He shook his head needing to stop the depressing path his mind had taken when he should be happy. The first thing he needed to do was get out of that damn suit. Kelley stood sliding off his suit jacket throwing it over the back of the chair followed by his black tie. Just as he unbuttoned the last button on his shirt there was a quick knock then the front door opened revealing Alex.

  Kelley smiled. “Hey, baby. You came.”

  Alex said nothing as he prowled across the room. Kelley watched him intently. Alex’s face showed an emotion Kelley hadn’t recognized, so he waited. He stopped in front of Kelley sliding his hands up the now bare skin of his chest to his neck, fingers gripped his hair pulling him into a possessive kiss.

  Kelley was shocked. With every swipe of Alex’s tongue, with every bite to his lips, Kelley couldn’t help think how that was different. Under normal circumstances Alex initiating anything, even something as small as a kiss, was huge. And it made him wonder what must be going through his guy’s mind for him to take that step.

  But damn he wasn’t stupid to stop it. No, he’d let Alex take the lead, just a little bit, and see where it took them.

  Kelley wrapped his arms around Alex grabbing his ass and pulling him in close so that their bodies were flush together. Grinding their hard cocks against each other. The feeling was fucking amazing. Always amazing.

  Alex pulled back, stopping the kissing but instead clasping Kelley’s hand, walked toward the chair that sat opposite the couch, tugging gently with his hand. He wasn’t used to not being the one doing the leading. It was a foreign feeling, but for now, he’d give that to him. Something in Alex’s face told him that was important to him.

  As they stopped in front of the chair, Alex turned Kelley so his back was to it. Alex glided his hands up over his collarbone, sliding Kelley’s shirt off his shoulders, down his arms then let it fall to the floor.

  Alex looked up at Kelley from under his long lashes, those stunning brown eyes mesmerizing Kelley.

  Alex went from confident in that demanding kiss to coy as he stood in front of him. The look telling Kelley there was something that Alex wanted to say, but he was unsure of what his reaction would be.

  Finally speaking, Alex asked, “Can you please sit?”

  He looked shy and uncertain but still trying to hold onto the control he had held at that moment. Kelley complied desperately wanting to see where it would lead. As he sat he adjusted his hard cock through the dress pants he still wore in plain view so that Alex would know the effect that he was having on him.

  Kelley looked up so fucking turned on that his hands itched to grab and pull Alex down, grind their cocks together. To push and take control. Give all the pleasure he could to the man that stood in front of him driving him out of his mind.

  Alex removed his shirt as Kelley looked his fill, wondering what was coming next and wanting to scream at him to hurry the fuck up, but the silence seemed just as important as letting Alex take the reins for a short time.

  Then his lap was full of Alex. As they rutted against each other, Alex licked at his lips, trailed kisses across his face, biting at his ears then back until he plunged his tongue into Kelley’s mouth. Their moans filled the space that had just been silent. As Alex drove him crazy, Kelley had his hands roaming up and down the skin of Alex’s back making all the nerve endings come to life. Then grabbing that tight hot ass in his palms, squeezing and pulling, relishing in the feel of heat building between them. At that point, he was no longer sure who was in control and he didn’t care as long as they kept going.

  Kelley felt Alex’s hands move off his shoulders, a second later something had sl
id around the skin at his neck. Opening his eyes, he pulled back from the kiss looking down to see his tie swathed around his neck, the ends hanging down to his belly. He looked up questioningly at Alex, but all he did was stare at the tie, as his hands smoothed down the ends.

  He must’ve felt Kelley’s eyes on him because he looked up, a small sexy smile turning up the corner of his mouth.

  “You are so fucking sexy.”

  Kelley was gone. No matter how good Alex taking the lead had felt, he couldn’t hold back any longer. He reached up to grab at Alex, wanting, no needing, to get his lips on him, Alex stopped him.

  “Wait. Please. Just one more thing?”

  Kelley didn’t know what Alex wanted to do, but he knew he had to give it to him. He seemed like he had a goal, a mission, and maybe it was to get Kelley to lose his mind, but whatever it was he would give it because that was his Alex.

  Nodding his head, he said, “You better be fast, baby. I need to get my hands on you.”

  At his words, Alex climbed off his lap, reaching down to undo Kelley’s pants, and Kelley liked where that was going. He lifted his ass so Alex could pull his pants and boxers off. Then Alex dropped to his knees and slowly devoured his cock.

  Then it was all wet and heat and suction. Every time his dick hit the back of Alex’s throat, he would immediately pull back. Just as Kelley thought he’d pull back again to stop himself from gagging, the pressure on his cock increased. Alex had kept going until the tip was in his throat. Then Alex swallowed around his dick, his muscles squeezing the crown creating the most delicious pleasure straight to his aching balls.

  Kelley nearly exploded.

  He couldn’t take it anymore. It was too good. Alex was too good.

  Kelley took control, he had to. There was no way that he would last much longer if he let Alex have his way. As much as he loved the idea of spilling down his throat he wanted in his ass more.

  “Alex, enough, get up here,” Kelley demanded, his voice rough and resonant.

  Alex immediately complied. He stood up as Kelley reached out his hand for him to take. Clasping their hands, he brought it first to his lips kissing his fingers, trying to convey a thank you for the pleasure Alex gave him, then pulling his hand signaling for Alex to straddle his lap once more.