Letting Go

by Morningstar Ashley

  Once he was settled, Kelley began to skate his hands over Alex’s chest and shoulders, arms and hands. He couldn’t get enough of that man. The feel of him under his hands. The weight of him on his body. He brought his lips in to explore as well, Kelley couldn’t decide what he wanted to touch, to taste, to learn so they traveled, only stopping when he found a spot that made Alex arch or moan.

  Hands grasping at Alex’s neck, he pulled him down into a kiss. Sexy little moans were escaping, pouring out of Alex all while their lips pushed together and their teeth nipped at each other.

  The pace began to build and the more it built, the more Alex seemed to writhe and tremble. Kelley knew then it was time to slow the kiss down, gentle them before Alex jumped out of his skin from the feelings rushing through them both.

  Just then an idea struck him, but he needed to make sure Alex was on board first.

  Kelley raised one hand to the base of Alex’s skull and fisted his fingers in his soft hair. He moved cautiously, testing the waters, pulling just a little, enough to cause some mild pain but nothing much. His suspicions that Alex liked a certain rough edge were one thing but acting on it without being sure was another. He finally felt they were at a place that Alex trusted him implicitly, and that was him testing that trust.

  “Baby? Would you be okay if I tied your hands behind your back with my tie?” Kelley asked as he pulled the long black tie from around his neck bringing Alex’s attention to it. Alex stared, with his pupils blown wide, he looked hungry and greedy.

  “Oh god, yes,” Alex said without taking his eyes from the tie that Kelley now had wrapped around his palm.

  “Good. Kneel on the couch, facing the back. Put your hands behind your back as soon as you’re in position.”

  Alex scrambled off his lap making his way over to the couch, doing as Kelley instructed. The muscles that tightened and moved as Alex moved across the floor and kneeled on that couch had Kelley’s cock, which was already heavy with need, twitching. As lean as his guy was he was strong, his body not ripped but tight.

  Kelley stalked toward Alex enjoying a sense of power and control. Making quick work with the tie, he tied Alex’s wrists together at the small of his back. Standing back studying Alex making sure his body language wasn’t screaming no.

  “You okay, baby? Not too tight?”

  “Yes, yes. Please, touch me.”

  “Oh, I will, but now I’m the one holding the reins. I’m the one who’s going to play with your body until you’re begging me to get inside of you.”

  Alex moaned and dropped his head down, flexing his fingers. Kelley once again found himself running his hands over the golden-brown skin. Carding his fingers into Alex’s hair as he pulled back so he could kiss him. It was sloppy and wet and so fucking hot. He rubbed his hard prick against Alex’s ass unable to stop himself, needing the friction, needing Alex.

  The thought suddenly hit him that he didn’t have any condoms or lube in his living room. Pulling back from the kiss, looking into Alex’s eyes he winked and said, “I’ll be right back. Don’t go anywhere.”

  A quick trip to the bathroom and he was back with what they needed. He dropped the stuff onto the coffee table and turned his attention back to Alex. Leaning over him he put his hands on the back of the couch, his chest just touching Alex’s back.

  “Lean forward, baby. Push that sweet ass right against my cock.”

  When Alex had moved, dropping his face to the back of the overstuffed couch, the flawless sensation of that ass pushing against his cock had Kelley dropping his forehead to Alex’s shoulder, groaning.

  “God, you feel good.”

  Kelley reached around grabbing the turgid flesh that stood thick and hard between Alex’s legs into his tight grip. When he started to jack Alex’s cock slowly, he moaned loud and long. Kelley could imagine he was finally getting some relief from the act.

  Alex’s skin was as warm as the sun, the heat soaking into every part of Kelley’s that touched his. He wanted desperately to push into Alex’s tight hole, ride him until he exploded inside of him, but he had him trussed up and at his mercy. There was no way he wasn’t going to enjoy that as long as he could.

  And he did. He kissed and licked his way across that sexy-as-fuck back. The muscles bunching with each pass of his tongue, every press of his lips, every bite from his teeth. Alex’s moans and whimpers grew and grew until it became like music to Kelley’s ears. Kelley alternated between running his hands all over that sexy body and slowly, teasingly jacking Alex’s shaft.

  The pre-come from Kelley’s cock had been leaking all over, but he wasn’t done yet. There was one more thing he needed to do before he fucked Alex. Kelley cupped Alex’s ass, spreading his cheeks, taking a moment to stare at that tight hole before he devoured it.

  Starting at the base of his spine he licked a path down the crack of Alex’s ass. Up and down a few passes before he paused right over his hole tonguing it, fast and slow, pulling moan after moan out of Alex. He spit on his hole running his finger softly around and around the rim, sliding in just a little bit then back out. Over and over Kelley did that until Alex was trembling, unable to stay still. He bit at his cheeks, putting teeth marks on that beautiful skin.

  Then back again flicking his tongue over his hole, pushing in with his finger at the same time, until he slid the digit all the way inside that velvet heat. Searching out that little bundle of nerves that would push Alex to the edge, he rubbed his finger over it, making him arch and grunt.

  “Please. I…I need you. Need your cock in me now.”

  A tremor rocked through him with the neediness and want in Alex’s voice. He quickly suited up, rubbing lube on his straining erection.

  Once the barrier muscle was relaxed and the head of his cock had breached him, Kelley used his hands to hold Alex’s hips still, slowly deepening into his flesh. He did it slowly, inch by inch until he had been fully seated against Alex’s ass.

  Once again needing to take a moment, he dropped his forehead to Alex’s shoulder. Kelley bit his lip, closing his eyes trying to escape the rush of emotion trying to take over. He held still for a moment when he was deep inside him as he could go.

  Taking deep breaths to slow his heart he spoke low. “I’m going to love you so hard, fill you so deep, bring you such pleasure, you’ll be thinking of me days from now, wondering when the next time will be. Hoping to feel even an ounce of what I’m going to make you feel. Because, Alex, you’re mine.”

  Kelley pulled out then, slamming back in a second later. A guttural cry left Alex’s mouth with each push forward. Kelley changed the angle just a bit until he was hitting Alex’s prostate with nearly every thrust.

  The faster he went, the more his fingers dug into the skin at Alex’s hips, the faster they both breathed. With each thrust Kelley climbed higher and higher, knowing he was not going to last long.

  Removing one of his hands from Alex he licked his palm, reached around and started to stroke Alex’s hot cock. It was the perfect length for gripping as he thrust into him from behind. Kelley’s thrusts more shallow now but just as deep and hard.

  “Oh, fuck…fuck!” Alex cried out.

  Kelley closed his eyes as he fucked into Alex concentrating on every sensation. Kelley tightened his grip on Alex’s cock, twisting his hand every time he got to the top.

  Knowing he was close, too close, he growled, “Alex.”

  And just like that Alex was coming, shooting his load over Kelley’s hand. The squeeze of his ass on Kelley’s dick pushed him over the edge. He collapsed onto Alex’s back, trying to catch his breath.

  A few minutes later he pulled out, disposed of the condom then untied Alex’s hands, rubbing them where the tie had once been.

  Not wanting to crash on the couch like they did a few days ago, causing for some aching necks when they finally did move, Kelley and Alex left their clothes where they were and made their way to Kelley’s bedroom.

  “Baby, can you stay for dinner or do you need
to get back to Evie?”

  “No, I can stay for a while. Kinsley called, asked if she and could pick Evie up from school and take her out.”

  “Alright. I’ll cook in a bit.”

  Kelley went into the bathroom grabbed a hot cloth, then came out and cleaned up Alex, who had lain down on his bed. A few minutes later he was back in his room after washing up only to realize Alex wasn’t just relaxed but asleep.

  Fondness surged through his chest.

  Of course, Alex was asleep. He never took care of himself enough to get the proper amount of sleep.

  Not able to resist the urge Kelley climbed into the bed, lying at Alex’s side. Gliding his fingers over all that honey-colored skin. Skin that had felt like living silk under his fingertips as he floated them over his shoulders, down his back, and around the curve of his ass, learning every inch of him as he slept so peacefully next to him.

  It was the only time he was completely relaxed and at ease with the world around him. He wished they could do that every night side by side in Kelley’s bed, but he knew that Alex wasn’t ready for that. Moving in together was a big step, maybe one neither of them was ready for, but he couldn’t help but wish for it.

  And the one thing Kelley had known with every fiber of his being was that Alex was not ready for the feelings that were consuming every piece of Kelley’s heart.

  He loved that man.

  Alex only had to ask, and Kelley would give him his heart, a heart he already owned.

  The past couple of weeks had been crazy. Kelley was busier than ever with implementing the rollout step by step after working so hard to get the approval. He’d been so happy for Kelley when he told him the morning after it all went down. The morning after more the night that changed things between them.

  Alex didn’t know what to think anymore. He honestly didn’t even want to think. He just wanted to live his life, finally happy, finally moving forward.

  Alex had thought they spent a lot of time together before that night but after it felt like it was even more.

  More mornings of waking up with Kelley next to him. The first time that happened it was a total accident. Kelley, being the perv that he is, decided since Alex wouldn’t make out with him in the living room for fear that Evie would walk out and catch them, he insisted that it would be smart to go into Alex’s room, close the door and make out in his bed. Yeah, well making out turned into much more. And the much more had them exhausted and falling asleep, so the next morning an over excited Evie walked into Alex’s room to find him not alone.

  It worked out fine. Alex had been embarrassed, Kelley had laughed, and Evie seemed content and insisted she was fine with it and had no questions. That was the green light Kelley needed to do it again. And again.

  More afternoons when Kelley would stop by to drop off his lunch and kiss him with all that he was worth. The last time he’d brought him lunch Alex wasn’t in the best of moods. A client had been difficult, as they sometimes are, and a surprise lunch and make-out session with his boyfriend had begrudgingly made it better.

  But only after he was a prick to said boyfriend.

  Alex answered the door to find Kelley on the other side, holding a paper bag and wearing a smile. Alex was not in the mood for happy people.

  “You didn’t need to bring me lunch. I would’ve remembered to eat.”

  “I don’t believe that for a second. Plus, I like bringing you lunch. Even spending time with you. Shocker, I know.”

  Alex wanted to smile, but he was just so cranky. “I still don’t understand why you put up with me. I am an ass and grumpy.”

  “You are.”

  “And yet you still like me.”

  Talk about being stubborn and not wanting to look needy.

  “You’ll find I’m not like most people.”

  Alex grumbled under his breath, “That’s the truth.”

  After being kissed and groped against the front door, Alex had stood by the door seeing Kelley out looking rumpled, which he entirely blamed on Kelley. He was leaving with a smug grin on his face that Alex wanted to wipe off.

  Kelley turned at the last minute and said, “This was fun. Both the lunch and the making out. Smile, baby, I’ll take care of your blue balls later.” He then winked and walked away. Smug bastard.

  More nights of homework with Evie, dinner together, and cuddling on the couch. They alternated houses. Sometimes it would be the apartment, mostly during the week since Evie had been in school still. Weekends were typically at Kelley’s. Evie loved the house and playing on the balcony, but she got bored quickly without any of her toys there, so she often went to Ivy’s or Ben’s.

  And that was one thing Alex had refused to do: bring their stuff over to Kelley’s house. Thankfully, Kelley understood.

  It was a big day. Alex was finally meeting Kelley’s friends, and he was fucking nervous. He knew David, so that made it a bit easier, but Kelley had told him a bit about Peter and River. Peter was the one Alex was most nervous about meeting. It seemed he was a smidge overprotective of his friends.

  It had taken a long time to find the time to get together with them since Kelley’s work schedule picked up significantly and he hated taking time away from the little time they did get together. But Alex had finally told him after yet another phone call from Peter to make it happen, and they could deal with one night not alone.

  The guys were all going over to Kelley’s which Alex was glad because meeting in a public place, where he was even more uncomfortable, would not be good. Kelley was happy as well because with his episodes seeming to increase in the last month, Kelley wanted to avoid all stressful situations. Which Alex knew was impossible, but he’d let him think whatever he wanted. But he began to fear that maybe Kelley was right. Maybe what he thought were just stress-induced episodes were more.

  Kelley had been putting all the food that Sofia had prepped ahead of time in the oven to get heated up, then he disappeared into his office to get some last-minute work done since he’d left the office early today.

  Alex had come over early after dropping Evie off at Ivy’s to spend the night. Once Kelley had sequestered himself in his office Alex set up his little work space at the table in the kitchen. Working always calmed his nerves, and he had nerves to spare.

  Thirty minutes later Kelley had come out of his office to check the food, walking past Alex, he bent over and placed a kiss on the top of his head. It made him feel all warm and uncomfortable. The natural affection and casual intimacy always threw him for a loop even after all that time.

  In the past weeks, Kelley had done these things more and more every day. Coming up behind him and wrapping him up in his arms for a minute before moving away, placing his hand on the small of Alex’s back if they went out, and random kisses to his lips whenever the mood had struck him. He loved and hated all of it.

  As Kelley had begun to remove the pans and dishes from the oven, Alex packed up his laptop so he could help Kelley. He placed all of it out on the dining table that sat in the space between the kitchen and living room.

  When the last dish had been placed, there was a knock on the door. Kelley walked over and pulled open the door. Alex peeked around him to see who had been the first to arrive. As soon as he saw David, he could feel some of the tension leave his body. Just having him arrive first had calmed his nerves.

  Kelley and David hugged in the doorway before pulling away and Kelley closed the door. David saw him, and his face brightened. Alex reached out his hand to shake David’s only to find himself pulled into a hug. David patted him on the back before stepping back.

  “It’s good to see you, Alex.”

  “You too. How’s married life been these last two months?” Alex asked.

  “Excellent. Charlie’s just happy we finally have the same last name. I swear every time he has to sign it he puffs out his chest,” David replied while laughing. Alex swore if hearts could pop up around David’s head it would’ve made the perfect scene.

  As th
e three of them stood there chatting, a man walked into the house, going right over to the table laden with food. Grabbing a plate he asked, “Is this Sofia’s food, Kel?”

  Kelley and David both had that fond look on their faces as they just shook their heads at the guy. Alex figured that that was probably not Peter but River.

  “Yeah, River, it’s hers. I can see your manners are as pleasant as ever,” Kelley said while rolling his eyes.

  With his mouth now full of food, River replied, “I know. Food first, friends second.” Then continued to fill his plate with nearly everything from the table.

  “You’re never going to find a girl with that behavior. No matter how cute your face is.” That had come from David.

  “Aww, you think I’m pretty! Trouble in paradise already? Looking at those greener pastures, are you, David?” River said as he winked at his friend.

  “You’re an asshole,” David replied with no heat.

  “Speaking of assholes. Knock up that husband of yours yet? I want to be an uncle before I’m old and gray.”

  They all burst out laughing, even River.

  Alex found them all fun and easy to be around, even in those few minutes that the conversation had been going on. They were all so comfortable with each other willing to say anything. Alex wished he had that.

  As the laughter had begun to die down, another man, who must’ve been Peter, walked in. The tall and brooding description fit him to a T. He hadn’t smiled as the others had, just stood there with a blank face.

  Kelley moved across the room shook his hand and said, “Twenty minutes late, really? And here I thought you had made progress.”

  “Shut it,” had been Peter’s reply before he looked over at him and said, “Introduce us,” to Kelley without taking his eyes off Alex. Kelley just shook his head and walked over to Alex, placing his hand on his shoulder.