Break Me Down

by Jennifer Domenico

  He pushes into me, grunting, and pulling my hair. I brace myself as he begins to move.

  “Oh, Jesus,” he mutters. “Fuck, Kaia, your ass…”

  “It’s so good. So good,” I mumble with heavy breath.

  “Hold on.”

  I grip the sheets and cry out as he fucks me harder, deeper. I hold my breath, no longer able to make a sound as I give myself over to everything happening to me. The vibrator assaults my clit as the machine works my pussy and Oliver’s cock owns my ass. I shudder as I fall over the brink again. My body shakes and I hear Oliver groan, sinking his fingers into my flesh as he releases inside of me. I think it’s over as he pulls out, but I was wrong.

  He flips me over, pushing the toys out of the way. Lifting the whip, he smacks me between the legs, roughly twisting my nipples between his fingers.

  “Have you had enough?” he growls.

  “No,” I answer breathlessly. “Not until you have.”

  He frowns, and I don’t understand why. Using his hand, he slaps my clit several times. I writhe below him, laughing.

  “I love it, Doctor. I need more.”

  He plunges several fingers inside of me and pulls me close until the tip of his cock rests against my ass again.

  “Do it. I’m so hungry for you. Like I haven’t had a meal in years.”

  Reaching forward, he grips my chin, searching my eyes. “You want more?”

  I nod, and as he holds my chin, he quickly slaps my cheek several times. It doesn’t hurt as much as it surprises me.

  “Don’t hold back,” I whisper.

  He shakes his head and lifts the riding crop, grabbing my breasts and smacking each nipple with it. Suddenly, my legs are lifting and being attached to the headboard behind me so that I’m spread open and completely exposed.

  Oliver shoves his cock inside of my ass again, causing me to groan. I struggle against my binds as he ass fucks me to within an inch of my tolerance. I throw my head back in pleasure. Suddenly he pulls out and buries his face over my clit. He sucks, and I scream his name as I come once more.

  A moment later, he slams into my pussy, digging his fingers into my thighs. I moan as he adds fingers, filling me to capacity. Pulling his fingers out, he shoves them in my mouth and I suck furiously as he pulls on the nipple clamps.

  As I come one more time, I scream his name.

  His body tenses within me, and he moves up to my mouth kissing me hard. I’m overcome by tears as he lies against me, breathing hard.

  “You’re amazing, Kaia,” he whispers. “Thank you.”

  I REACH UP, UNHOOKING HER WRISTS and ankles, and she immediately wraps her arms around me. I cover her face in kisses as tears spill from her eyes.

  “Did I hurt you?”

  “No,” she says, smiling. “You didn’t hurt me.” She runs her fingers through my hair. “You could have. I was completely helpless, but you didn’t. All you did was bring more pleasure to me than I’ve ever experienced.”

  I kiss her mouth. “Kaia…”

  “Do you see now? You’re not a monster. You’re so magnificent. So strong. So sexy. I’m overwhelmed that I’m here. That I found you. You’re everything.”

  I kiss her again and hold her close. “Shh, baby.”

  “I love you,” she whispers against my cheek. “Do you understand, Oliver?”

  I nod and look into her eyes. “If someone ever asked me to define what love feels like I would have no words. All I could do is say your name. You are what love feels like.”

  She smiles and kisses me softly. “Did you stop yourself from doing anything to me? Did you hold back?”

  I shake my head. “No.”

  “You didn’t want to hurt me?”

  “No.”

  “You only wanted my pleasure. You wanted to see me let go, watch me succumb to what you gave me. That’s all you wanted.”

  “Yes.”

  “So you know now, that you can trust yourself. That I was right to put my trust in you. I knew all along.”

  “How?”

  She cups my face. “I am the love.”

  I smile. “You tamed the monster.”

  “You awakened one.”

  “You handled so much. It’s like nothing I’ve ever seen.”

  “I loved it, Oliver. Every second.” She grins. “I want more.”

  “You need to rest.”

  “All I need is a shower.”

  “Let’s take a bath. I want to wash every delicious inch of your body.”

  “Then?”

  “Then I’ll feed you, then we’ll nap, then I’ll fuck you until the sun comes up.”

  A stunning smile stretches over her lips. “A perfect day.”

  “With a perfect woman.”

  We climb out of bed and walk into the bathroom where I start to run the bath.

  “I’ve always wanted to find a woman to share this tub with me. I picked it out imagining how perfect it would be for two.”

  “I’m glad it’s me.”

  “So am I.” I extend my hand helping her in and then climb in behind her, wrapping my legs over hers. She leans back against me, swirling her hands in the sudsy water.

  “How do you feel?” I rub her shoulders. “Back there?”

  “Fine. I mean, it’s sore, but nothing major. I would like to do that again.”

  “Not today.”

  “Okay.” She twists around so she can see me. “How do you feel?”

  “Amazing.” I smile. “Free.”

  She smiles, settling back in against me. “I think you should let me fuck your ass.”

  I laugh, surprised by her words. “With what?”

  She rolls over, laying flat against me. “My tongue. My finger. My toys.”

  “Why?”

  “Two reasons. The first is that it’ll rock your world. You’ll come so hard, and it will be because of me.” I smile as she drags her finger down my chest. “The second is because I believe that will be the final chain that ties you to your past.”

  I frown. “What if it has the opposite effect? What if it pushes me back into the dark?”

  “I’ll be here to pull you out again. I’m the sun, remember, baby? There’s no darkness when the sun is shining.”

  I grin. “You should be a sex therapist, you know that?”

  She smiles. “Well, a very wise doctor told me that only someone battling their own demons can help someone exorcise theirs.”

  I tap her nose with my finger. “You’re amazing.”

  “I’m not. I’m just crazy about you, and I want you to feel like I do. I want you to know deep down in your soul that nothing is ever going to hurt you again.”

  I nod. “I need to think about it.”

  “I know.” She rises up, kissing me softly. “I need something else.”

  “What’s that?”

  “Got a razor?”

  “I do.”

  “I need a touch up. I want to be super smooth for you when you bury your face there again.”

  “I’ll get it for you.”

  “For you.”

  “What?” I tilt my head. “You want me to shave you?”

  She nods, grinning. “I do.”

  “Why?”

  “I don’t know, but the idea turns me on.”

  I take her hand and put it on my hardening cock. “It’s turning me on too. Be right back.” I climb out of the water and find a new razor under the vanity sink. “Sit on the edge.”

  Kaia rises up and props herself on the edge of the bathtub, opening her legs for me. I grab the shaving cream and squirt it onto my hand, then spread it over her.

  “What would you like today?” I ask, grinning. “Landing strip? Triangle, Bare?”

  “What would you like, Doctor?”

  I grin. “Why is it so fucking hot when you call me that?”

  “Let’s just accept that it is.”

  I nod. “I think we’ll go with landing strip.”

  “Works for me.”

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sp; I drag the razor over her skin as she watches me intently. “Stop looking at me like that.”

  “Why?”

  “I need to concentrate.”

  She grins. “You’re doing fine.”

  I shave the top part, then using my fingers, delicately shave her lips and below. Using the washcloth, I rinse her off and then brush my lips over her newly bare skin.

  “Is it soft enough?” she asks. “Did you do a good job?”

  “I did. It’s super soft.” I rub against her again. “And so pretty.”

  “Is it?”

  “Beautiful, especially up close.” I stick my tongue inside of her. “I can’t get enough.”

  “Good.”

  “Put your legs on my shoulders.”

  “I’ll fall.”

  “No, you won’t. Lean against the wall. I’ve got you.”

  She does, gripping the towel bar behind her. I lose myself in her fleshy folds, licking, sucking, diving in the sweet nectar she keeps her. I roll her clit between my teeth. She tugs at my hair, softly moaning my name. I grip her thighs and go at her with all my might. I feel her body tense and then jump when I hear a loud crashing noise. My instinct to protect her kicks in, and I pull her into my arms.

  When I look up, I see the dangling towel bar. She looks at it, and we both start laughing.

  “Uh, sorry about that,” she says, laughing. “It’s your fault.”

  “A small casualty for the pleasure I just enjoyed.”

  “The pleasure was mine.”

  “Let’s get out. I need to do something.”

  “You’re okay?”

  “Of course. I want to test your theory.”

  “Um, okay.”

  I climb out of the tub and help Kaia out, wrapping her in a towel, and leading her back into the bedroom. I stop, looking at the bed left messy by our lovemaking, then decide to take her to the couch.

  “What are we doing?” she asks.

  I put my hands on each of her shoulders. “You want to test my triggers?”

  She nods. “I do.”

  “Let's start with a big one. Sit on my face.”

  “Huh?”

  “Sit on my face. I want to know how it feels with you. I already know I love how you taste, how you smell, how you feel. I know you love me, and I know I’m safe.”

  “Are you sure? That’s pretty major.”

  “I know. If I can do that, I can do anything else. I’ll buy you a strap on.”

  She laughs softly. “If you’re sure.”

  I lay on my back and smile. “Come here, sweet Kaia.”

  She drops her towel and lies on top of me, kissing me deeply, rubbing her hand over my dick. I’m immediately hard again. She does that to me. She twists around, closing her lips over my shaft, plunging me deep down her throat. I realize what's she doing, turning me on first. She’s so intuitive with me. My own personal therapist.

  She scoots back slowly until her pussy hovers above my face. Her hands drag up my thighs, my stomach, until she’s upright. She lowers onto my mouth, and I stick my tongue out to greet her. I take a moment to examine my thoughts. Does it bring anything back? I close my eyes, but the only thing here is Kaia. All I can feel is love.

  I relax into the couch and enjoy what’s happening. She begins to rock against my mouth. I break away for just a moment.

  “Turn around,” I grunt.

  Kaia twists, looking down at me before lowering down again. I reach up, kneading her tits. She grinds into my mouth, and I suck and lick until she’s moaning. She clenches my head between her knees as she comes, throwing her head back and bucking wildly. I throw her back and enter her, fucking her hard until I explode inside of her. Panting, I collapse on top of her, and she cradles me in her arms.

  “I’ve waited my entire life for you,” I whisper. “Thank you for coming.”

  “IT DIDN’T MAKE YOU feel bad?”

  “Not at all. I was completely in the moment with you.”

  She smiles. “That makes me really happy for you.”

  “I used to have nightmares about it. I would wake up gasping for air, trying to shove her off of me. The nightmares didn’t stop until she went to jail.”

  “You know what you have to do, right?”

  “No. I don’t know what you mean.”

  “You need to confront her. The way you made me confront my parents. She needs to know what she did to you.”

  “She heard my testimony.”

  “But did you tell her? Did you look her in the eyes and tell her?”

  “No, and I’m not going to.”

  “Oliver, you know better than this. You have to practice what you preach.”

  He sits up, turning his back to me. “I don’t have to do anything.”

  “You’re right. You can just wait for it to show up, unexpected. Maybe it’ll be in the middle of our lovemaking. Or a session with a client. Maybe it will be when you look in the eyes of your own child someday.”

  He twists around, glaring at me. “I’m not having children.”

  “Why? Because you don’t think you can be a good parent? She made you think that, you know she did.”

  “Stop it, Kaia.”

  “No way.” I sit up, touching his back. “I want a future with you. I want to wake up every day loving you. You would be an amazing father.”

  “How can you say that?”

  “Because if you decided to have children, you would do everything you could to love them the way we were never loved. The way we should’ve been loved. I know you.”

  “You don’t,” he says, burying his face in his hands. “You’ve known me a few weeks.”

  “You’re wrong, Oliver. I’ve known you forever. Before I saw your face, before I knew your name. My heart knew you existed, and my soul searched everywhere for you. The day I got here, I knew I found you.” I put my hand on his heart. “Don’t you know that? Isn’t it the same for you?”

  “Are you even real? Am I going to wake up one day and realize this was all just a beautiful, impossible dream?”

  I take his hand and put it on my heart. “I’m here. It’s all real. I love you, and I’ll never stop telling you. I’ll never stop trying to show you how much. Do you feel that way about me? Like you found what your soul was looking for?”

  “Yes.” He takes my hand and lifts it to his mouth, kissing it. “You’re right about all of it. I’ve known for years I needed to confront her. I just don’t want to.”

  “Did I want to see my parents?”

  “No, but my situation is different. Your dad wasn’t your abuser.”

  “Yes, it’s different, but if Jim were alive today, what would you advise me to do? Ignore it because it’s hard?”

  “No.”

  “Right. You’ve made me talk to him whether I want to or not.” I rub his arm. “And now I know that it would’ve been the right thing to do, just like talking to my dad was. I’m not filled with so much anger and hurt anymore. I really believe when I see them again, it’s going to be better. You helped me with that. The least I can do is help you in return. You have to do it, Oliver.”

  “I know.”

  “I’ll go with you if you want me to.”

  Oliver offers a slight smile. “I can handle it. Just promise me, you’ll be here when I get back.”

  “I will. When will you go?”

  He takes a deep breath. “Soon or it’ll hang over me until it’s done.”

  “I’m so proud of you.” I kiss his lips softly. “Let’s go back to bed.”

  He smiles, rubbing his thumb over my chin. “That sounds good.”

  “Oh,” I say grinning. “Don’t forget. You owe me a strap on.”

  Oliver laughs, shaking his head. “I won't forget.”

  AFTER DAYS OF BEING HOLED UP in my room making love, I stand over the bed, watching her sleep. I have no idea how I got to this place. How I’m standing here, putting on a tie, preparing to see the woman that ruined my life. I don’t know how I ended up s
leeping next to the most beautiful woman in the world, who says she loves me, and then shows me. A woman who believes she wants to have my babies. I feel a lump in my throat and choke it back. I don’t know how any of it happened, but I can’t ever go back to how it used to be. Kaia is the sun, and she shines on me every day.

  She stirs in her sleep, rolling over to face me. When her eyes focus, she smiles.

  “Morning, handsome,” she says.

  “Morning, sunshine.”

  She stretches, letting the sheet fall down. “You’re fucking sexy, you know that?”

  “Am I?”

  “You know how to wear a suit, I’ll tell you that.”

  “You like how I dress?”

  “I do. Although I admit, I prefer you undressed.”

  “Back at ya.”

  She sits up, running her fingers through her hair. “Are you sure you want to go alone?”

  I nod. “I am.” I walk to her and sit on the edge of the bed, running my hand over her cheek, and then resting it on her neck. “I have trouble with the words. It’s hard for me to describe my feelings, but I’m really, really happy you’re here, and I don’t remember the last time I could describe myself as happy.” I kiss her softly. “Thank you.”

  She smiles and gasps when the door to my bedroom opens and Lina rushes in.

  “Dr. Scott, Miss Kaia is … Oh.”

  I stand up, startled that she came in my room without permission. “Why are you here?”

  “I thought Miss Kaia was missing. I was afraid.” Her eyes shift to Kaia, who gathers the blankets around her. “I’m so sorry.” She turns and rushes out the door.

  “Shit.” I turn back to Kaia. “I better go calm her down.”

  “You can trust her, right?”

  “I’m sure I can. I hope I can.”

  “Make something up. Tell her I snuck in your room.”

  “It’s none of her business why you’re here.”

  “I know, but, I don’t want her to think that something inappropriate happened.”

  I laugh. “Something very inappropriate happened. I’ll tell her the truth.”